Pretend It's Okay (Bluestone 42 Fanfic)

Like I'm Gonna Lose You

Chapter 18: (Karmin's POV)

However, my hands don't cover my face for long as his much larger ones gently pry mine away from my face. In one swift motion, he's captured both wrists in his left hand, his right hand brushing my chin before he places it and softly tilts my head up so I have no choice but to look him in the eyes. "Why are you crying love?" He asks in his thick British accent, forcing me to melt even more.

"I'm partially embarrassed for being turned on and the other part is because I have to leave." I report, his eyes meeting mine with curiosity glistening in them as though he were waiting for someone to call "joke".

"Why?" He mutters, desperately clinging to my hands and not letting go. Though he did not want to believe it, he could see I was serious about this.

"I can't lose you. I don't want to see you leave because you got tired-"

"That's bullshit. You are not losing me. That's pushing me away because you are afraid. Karmin, I know you are and I am afraid too because you're the bet thing that's ever happened to me. I need you in my life." His eyes bore into mine as he subtly says this, arguing with me passionately that he is never leaving me alone on his account.

"Gordon I don't want to hurt you. I'm a pile of rubble amongst the tall towers. I can't-"

"I'll rebuild you into a tall tower. We will combine to make the tallest tower, tallest and strongest. You can be rebuilt but you don't want to because you are afraid. it's okay, Karmin. We don't have to do it alone because we have each other. Do you want to do it?" He inquires, my hands squeezing his as I feel much more comfortable in his presence at this time.

"I do. I'm ready, Gordon." His lips widen into a grin, his pearly whites showing their beautiful glow as he displays his excitement of this. he leans forward and presses his skin against mine as our front temples meet, foreheads gently lain against the other's. "I love you, Gordon." I breathe as I think about the feeling in my stomach, the butterflies fluttering all about the area, my heart racing like never before.

His lack of response scares me so I go to apologize but as if he knows exactly what I'm going to do, he parts his lips and speaks, "I love you too, Karmin. More than you can imagine." He cups my left cheek in his right hand and slowly leans in as though he is asking for permission. I nod at him, his head leaning in the rest of the way, our lips connecting in a passionate embrace which my lips awkwardly entered into. However, soon enough I get used to it and comfortably match his pace, wrapping my arms around his neck.

We both hear the door creak open, and I know he noticed because his lips momentarily stopped moving but mine still moving made his go back into passionate motion that neither of us wanted to stop. "UGH!" Serena screams in frustration, walking out and slamming the door behind her, leaving me with a smirk/smile on my face and a chuckle passed between Gordon and I since both of us chuckled. When we pull away, we are both breathless, having only pulled apart to get some air.

"I so wish I could have seen her face," I mutter, Gordon glancing at me as we both share a smile, his eyes saying "me too".

"You can! I took a picture and had Skippy take a video of the entire thing." Carla says, her voice coming from inside the room. I turn my head to find her leaning against the wall, my eyes widening. "What? He left it unlocked! Besides you two look so cute together, I just had to snap a pic!" She whines in defense of herself.

"Show us the picture of Serena and I'll decide if I kick your stalker ass or not." I wink at her, to which she walks over and hands is the stuff. We both take a look at the picture and then look at each other, (Gordon and I), bursting into laughter and both mentally deciding not to kick Carla's ass.