Lost In Remnants

Dream

Sorry for the delay. I got a little sick and had to take quite a bit of time off work for my mental health. Am doing better now, but the struggle is real, especially going into long nights, no light, because you bet ya person needs that sunlight to function. Hoping to be able to post a little more regularly now, and hopefully you all like it. Thanks, Butterflies ^-^

The Doctor

I'd just been sat there reading over the same passage again and again.

Divvy had long ago settled on my lap and was contentedly purring in her sleep as I absently stroked her fluffy head, the half Forest Cat knowing that I wasn't okay, and knew that she had been tasked to make me as well as could be. But how would anything ever be okay again? How?

The Ponds, Amy and Rory, my sweet Amelia Pond, from Leadworth, with a crack in her bedroom wall that was really a crack in time and space. Lost. I'd lost them, and even though my sister was only a few corridors away, hidden buried in the her mind that Ellody Croft was using as though it was really her body, she had never truly felt further away from me. It would have been better to think she was still dead, in some respects, because at least then I knew. Knew she didn't choose outright to leave me.

But there she was. Hidden, behind the mind of someone who clearly didn't like me to begin with, but now that she knew who exactly they were, most likely hated me more than she did at the beginning. LizBeth didn't die, but she also never came home. She left me again, and who knew if I'd ever see her again?

Who knew if she wanted to see me, given what she had to do just to ensure I had my correct ending.

Afterword, by Amelia Williams.

Hello, old friends, sweet Super Siblings, and Mx Ellody Tara Croft. And here we are, you two, her and me, on the last page. The last page that, I hope, Lovely Lizzy will be reading with you.

By the time you read these words, Rory and I will be long gone. So know that we lived well, and were very happy. And above all else, know that we will love you both always. Sometimes I do worry about you, though. A lot of the time, actually, because I feel like Ellie isn't going to let go of that body any time soon. I think once we're gone, and if Ellody leaves you without any form of her, you won't be coming back here for a while, and you might be alone, which you should never be.

Don't be alone, Doctor. You and your sister are meant to be together, always, and you know that. If you aren't together, who else will put up with one another? Ellody must know that it isn't her body, but if she's just a programme, then there are a million ways to get her one of her own and then you'll have two of them. Ellie and Lizzy, two sisters, perfectly opposite from each other, but still your sisters.

And do one more thing for me. There's a little girl waiting in a garden, not quite Harmonia, but a garden none the less. She's going to wait a long while, so she's going to need a lot of hope. Go to her. Tell her a story. Tell her that if she's patient, the days are coming that she'll never forget, because the Remembrance will keep her Remembered. Tell her she'll go to sea and fight pirates. She'll fall in love with a man who'll wait two thousand years to keep her safe. Tell her she'll give hope to the greatest painter who ever lived, learn from the Archive itself in a way that almost no one else ever has, and save a whale in outer space. Tell her this is the story of Amelia Pond. And this how it ends.

Oh, Amy... I needed you here, needed you to be the fiery light that I had keeping me here after I thought she died, but she wasn't dead, she was just... Asleep in her head and using someone else to pretend to be so. Why would she do that? Why couldn't she be here still?