The last time was weird
The last time I can recall beat by beat
Because the last time was the first time
I tried to laugh along
The first two times I died
I died a quiet death
Waiting
The last time
The last time it began
And for hunrdeds and hundreds of seconds
My body started to give
Quietly, still
Waiting
And I waited
And I waited
And I got scared
Scared to dig the shovel into the dirt
Scared you would get mad at me
Berate me for staying still
So I opened my eyes
And I opened the door
It's less scary
If you pretend you're in on the joke
