Driver's License

Chapter 8 - Red lights, Stop signs

Ever since I dreamed of him he has never left my mind. I tried not to think about him but still he still lingers on my mind. What makes me more confused is Vincent. He's been pestering me since I came home from Mon's. Still I keep turning him down but he's so persistent.

As the traffic light turns into red and all the vehicle stops, I looked aroun. One car caught my attention. It was just like his audi. I shook the thoughts out of my head.

That's not his car Hailey! That's not him! Stop thinking of him! He will never ever comeback!

Me scolding myself had stopped when the car at the back of me blew their horn. When I looked up it's already green. m

Fuck! Focus Hailey! You're driving!

I turned inti the next alley cuz I don't wanna drive on the highway. I continued driving even though I have no destination to go to. However, it looks like avoiding the stop lights is a very bad decision.

Fuck! I'm doomed!

I pulled over to breathe. Tumabi ako saglit para huminga. I covered my face with frustration then I started to slap my steering wheel.

Damn Hailey! Why the heck are you driving! Why can't you just stay at home!

I don't know where I'm going. Everywhere I go I remember him. I can't even drive past the places we used to go to.

I see his face almost everywhere; in the white cars, in my front yard. That's why I chose to leave my house right now. m

Am I going crazy???

I think I really need to talk to my therapist ko.

Is this what mommy's feeling before? Now I understand her. I can't blame her why she chose to have her own world with them.

But, hell no! I won't be like her.No! I won't be inside a facility. I'm stronger than this. I can get through this! 

I looked outside. It's a beautiful day for everyone, not for me. I noticed the stop sign and some cars are stoping when people are passing.

If only it's that easy right? If only I could just put a stop sign on my heart..

I've decided to continue driving but now I'm going back home. My tummy grumble meaning I'm hungry so I just bought some fastfood. My friends will kill me if they'll knew I ate fastfood again.

While driving I've been fighting with myself if I should go home or just go to my therapist. And after a couple of fighting I've made my decision, I couldn't wait for another week. I really need to talk to my therapist. Hopefully, her sched isn't full today cuz' I don't have an appointment.

I pulled over to her clinic. "Ma'am Hailey!"

"Hi Pat! Is your boss there? Does she have a client???"

"Yes, but it's the last one for today."

"Oh! That's good! Can you squeeze me there for the last session?" I asked. "I need to talk to Fiona."

"Sure ma'am! No problem!" I laughed because I feel like a vip here. Just like my friends Fiona has been babying me. "Just sit and wait there. I'll call you if she's done."

"Thank you! You're the best!" I smiled and then I handed her a paper bag. "Here. Eat."

"This is why you're my favorite out of all the clients of Doc. Fiona." she joked. "Thank you!"

"You also is my favorite secretary." and then I moved closer. "Don't tell Ellie that." I also joked. She just laughed at me. She and El became friends also because of me.

I texted my friends that I'm here at Fiona's clinic to talk to her. They were so happy when they knew it.

"Thanks Doc. Lim." I heard a man and I immediately turned to the door of her office. There she stepped out with a man. They bid there goodbyes before she walk through Pat's desk. Fiona didn't notice me sitting here.

"Oh! where did this come from? You ordered???" she asked her secretary and got some fries.

"No Doctora. This was brought by your last client to bribe me." I suppressed my laugh on what she said.

I saw Fiona's eyebrows creased. "And you took the bribe?! I told you not to accept cuz Carlo was the last for today."

With that I stood up and walked towards their direction. "Don't tell me you're going to reject me?"

"Hailey?"

"The one and only!"

"What are you doing here? Our appointment is still next week right?" she asked. I pouted.

"Aren't you happy to see me??? I thought I'm your favorite???" I acted hurt and she just shook her head then put her arm on my shoulder.

"Ofcourse I'm happy! You dramatic kid!"

I winked at Pat and she's smirking at me while eating a burger. She knows that Fiona wouldn't reject me. This girl loves me so much!

"Lezzgoo. I've been meaning to talk to you also." She said and we both entered her office. I sat on my favorite chair of hers. It's been months since I sat on this chair.

I'm happy to see fiona again but it's not good to be back here.