𝕄𝕒𝕗𝕚𝕒 o̶r̶ n̶o̶t̶

6

Saturday and I wake up early 6 o'clock. What is wrong with me? A lot little girl... Don't call me like that! Sure your my head, but your not allowed to say that! My mother was the only person who named me like that... No one else is allowed to speak it out! You know that, so shut up! I stand up and wanna walk into the bathroom. On the way there I see Jon in the floor searching something, really weird. What does he wanna find here? "Ahem...", I say as I stand behind him. He freakly turns around and looks shocked in my face. "Oh do I look so horrible or why do you seem like you've seen a zombie? What were you searching? Do you have secrets or don't you trust us?", I ask him. He calms down and smiles about the comment to his face. "I'm sorry... I have to go...", he only says and goes away. Wait what?! "Jon wait...!", I scream through the floor and hope that my father is deep sleeping in this moment, so I don't wake him up. My words show no effort, because I hear the door and he is gone. What was that? Am I still dreaming or is this real? I punch myself and fel the pain, so it's not a dream.

After I was under the shower and brushed my teeth I walk out of the bathroom and go into my room to change my clothes and dress me comfortable and sporty. I have a long day ahaed of me, training, a gang meeting, relaxing and surely more. I hate days like that!
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It's 10:00 and my alarm rings. From my training room I walk downstairs to the kitchen and eat breakfast with my father. He is really friendly and in a good mood, that's rare. I greet him with a smile and I find out what's the reason for his happiness - Jake is here. What is he doing here?! Can I beat him up without getting in drouble? Dad surely knows that Jake knows my real identity, so it wouldn't be a problem or? What if he's in the gang now? Oh no...

"Good morning M-" "Shut up and leave! I have to speak with my father!", I interrupt Jake and look at him really cold. He understands well and goes out of the house. "What brings you to let him in? Why was he here? What did you two speak about before I came down huh? Is he now in the gang so he doesn't tell anyone who I am or what?", I ask my father in a louder tone then I actually want to. "Listen Alice! It was the only chance to be sure that he is silent about it. You know what will happen if he tells anyone... That's exactly the same future as for Cloe...", he answers in a calm tone. I don't know him like that. Actually he is the one freaking out like me in this moment and I'm the calm person. Okay that's really weird. "What do you mean with Cloe?", I aks him. "You know that she will be not longer a member of the gang...", he says. I'm shocked! "You can't do that! She's my left hand like Jon is my right! You can't change her position with an other one! Please show mercy only once...", I try to change his mind. "We speak later about it. Now to the more important matters. The meeting today will be about two things - first Jake and then the daimonds of the BlackAngels. We have to steal them, if we wanna show them who the boss is you know that...", he tells me and I go back into my room searching information about the place where the stones are.
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I dress myself like ever -black tight leather pants, black short top, my perfect black boots and my leather jacket with our symbol the bat and the raven. Obviously only my outfit for the gang meetings or stuff with the gang. If I would wear this in school everyone would freak out! I wear my hair open and my make up is stronger and darker, I like it. My pistole is in my pants and I can put it out in three seconds if I need it. I have good trained reflexes, that's really important in this branche.
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"Listen! ... This is our new member Jake Almond. You will respect him, show him how everything works and help him, if he needs help, like everyone before. Mark please do this for me, I can't right know", I speak and have the whole attention. "We have time, your father isn't here, so you can show him the place, I also have to do research for the diamonds...", he only answers and goes back in the computer room. I hate it! "Good... Follow me!", I tell him and he does as I see. Maybe he is a fast leaner after all... No, no he is not and you'll know why...

As we are walking through the hall, I feel how he looks at me. "What?", I ask softly angry. "Nothing...just...", he begins, but the sound of the door interrupts him. Ha! You deserve this! "This is my father, we have to go!", I say and he knows what to do. I walk in another direction to find out more about the security of the hide place for the daimonds and end up in the same room as Mark. He is one of the most important men in the gang, because he overlooks all cameras and tells us, if it's safe or not, he hacks in every program or system without getting seen and controls our money. He is fabulous!
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"Dark! We have to go!", Jon comes in after two hours or longer, I don't really know. "Yeah I'm coming...", I only say and don't move an inch. He roles his eyes I can see out of the corner of my eye and comes to me. He waves with his hands in front of my eyes and forces me to look in his eyes. I have to say, that he has wonderful dark brown eyes... Stop it! You have Tien! Jon is only your right hand and not more! You're not allowed to! What are you talking about? I can like who I want and Tien is only a friend! Now shut up! "Do you come with me please...?", he disturbs my inwardly monologue and brings me to smile. "Sure I can, but I don't want to, because I have to find out, how I come in and out of these stupid halls of the Balck Angels without getting seen or heard. You know what I mean? I don't wanna get stressed, when I steal things...", I give back and he laughs. "What do you laugh at?", I ask him. "I only didn't know before you're SO ambitious...haha...", he continues to laugh and I also do. After a short time my father comes in and looks between us with an impression that shows absolutely lack of understanding and intolerance. We abruptly stop laughing and I stand up. "Stay here for five seconds I have to speak with Jon about something. You have to focus on the diamonds...", he says cold and I get goosebumps. Fuck! This is my fault! I'm an idiot!

"Hey is everything alright?", asks a voice of an ashole. "What do you want Jake?", I ask back and he comes in my field of vision. I sadly have to say, that he has a good body and actually also a beauty face, but his character isn't that nice. "I just wanna keep you some company, but if you don't want to it's okay...", he says and wanna turn around. I can't do that, I'm the leader! I have to do give everyone a chance! Oh sometimes I hate my life! "Wait! Maybe I need some company...", I give back and he smiles at me. "I knew it! What are you looking at?", he wants to know. "I can't tell ya this! You are only a Lower and don't have the tattoo either. So you're not allowed to know stuff like that. If you wanna know something like that and go around the world with us or what do you think we are doing here, you have to work hard and show us, that we can trust you in all ways...", I say to him and he looks a little bit sad. "Okay... but it's surely about the diamonds from the Black Angels or?", he asks again. "Yes. But don't let us only talk about the work... Why you did this in school huh?", I ask the question. He doesn't answer and leaves the room. How dares he! He can't do this! You see that he can... Shut up! I don't have time for this now. It's better that he's gone now, so I can focus on my work.
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Late in the night, 3 AM or something like that, I walk inside our home and go straight in the kitchen. Jon is already gone and my father is sleeping, so I'm alone and it's really silent. I look in the fridge to see that it's nearly empty. I close it and walk upstairs to my room. That means sleeping without dinner. I walk to my wardrobe and change my outfit, without thinking about my environment. I'm shocked as I hear something at the window. What is this?! In my training clothes, I walk right to it and see the source for the noice - Tien. "Why are you still awake? And why do you stalk me as I dress myself? Isn't it a little bit strange to do?", I ask him with a smile. He seems to blush a little bit and loooks me in the eyes. "I don't watch you while dressing yourself, I would never do this! And I'm still awake because it's Saturday... ", he answers me and I have to laugh about the reaction. "Why are your laughing?", he asks me then. "Oh... only about your reaction and your funny face...I'm sorry...", I give back and we talk over an hour, before I deside to go to bed, before not having enough power for tomorrowor or better later today...