𝕄𝕒𝕗𝕚𝕒 o̶r̶ n̶o̶t̶

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My alarm wakes me up AGAIN! I HATE THIS OBJECT SO MUCH! Today is Tuesday and school. That means I'm a nerd and have to be over punctual in school and friendly, shy and clever. But actually, I'm the opposite of shy, punctual or friendly! I stand up and walk into the bathroom. Under the shower I calm down and can think about the lessons today. My thoughts go back to yesterday and the small conversation with this Tien guy and what he said. He makes compliments without blushing or something like that. Does he mean it or does he only want to speak to someone? Why am I even thinking about it? Focus yourself on your quest and don't let him confuse you! You have to play this role and look around to check our enemies and their planes! So don't fail on this! Okay, okay I get it! Don't be always so mean to me! I have to be like that, so you hurry up! We don't have any time for this inwardly conversation! Yeah, I'm ready!
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After my morning routine I walk downstairs to the kitchen and eat my typical morning cereal. My father comes in and sit down next to me. "Good morning my dear!", he says. "Good morning father!", I answer him. "Don't come to late to school, you know you have an image to fulfill!", he changes the topic and I only nod. I hate this topic, because I actually don't want this, but I want to make my father proud and don't think so much about what happend five years ago with my mother. This situation was because my identity wasn't anonym and this asholes found us. Every time I think about it, I want to change the thing, that my mother dies for me. I deserved it and she shouldn't have done this for me!
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With hanging head and shoulders I'm walking to school and don't realize someone is following me. As he types on my shoulder I wince. OMG! Why he is doing that? "Hey sorry I don't wanna scare ya! I only wanna ask you if I can walk with ya...", he speaks and scrapes on his occiput, what looks in one way really cute. Why you think like that! Stop it! Yeah your right! I'm sorry! "Ehm... If you want to...", I only answer and go on. He walks beside me and I feel not good because of that. Jake will absolutely have something against it and I don't want to have a situation like last week.
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At the campus I walk to my best friend Cloe and Tien just follows me. Why is he doing that, I don't know. Cloe looks at him with a cold look and scanns him completly. Good job! "Hey is everything alright?", she asks me and then my mobile phone rings. Normaly that never happens, because I'm a nerd and shouldn't be disturbt in school. I look on the display and see Jons name. I walk away and go in a silent and small corner of the schoolground to answer the call.

(A=Alice, J=Jon)
A:
What is it? You know I don't have time for this! Speak fast and come to a point Jon!
J:
Good morning too! We have a big problem! Your father is not here, because of the meeting with the asians and the leader of Bad Boys is here!
A:
And you don't get this on your own? He is alone or?
J:
Yeah, but he wants to make a deal with us...
A:
Wait there I'm coming!

After that I go to the school office and ask to go home, because I'm feeling not well. The woman behind the desk smiles at me and says, that it's the first time in all the years and let me go. I leave the building and walk over the campus to the gate, as someone calls my name: "Hey Alice where are you going? The teachers room is in the other direction!", Jake is so annoying! "Tell me why you wanna leave the school? Aren't you the nerd?", he goes on and I only walk my way, but he follows me. He grabs my arm and I turn around. That is what he wants. With his other hand he is holding my chin and forces me to look into his eyes. I have to say they are really beautiful, but I know his character and so he is the last shit!
I don't have time for this childish stuff and look with my emotionless and cold look into his eyes and speak with the same intention to him the next words: "Listen to me one time. I know this is really exhausting for you, but try it. Concentrate and put on your brain just one time and let go of my arm. I really don't have time for your childish acting and your stupid words!" He is in shock and I'm using this to walk away without looking back.
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At home I change my clothes, put my make up on, style my hair and go downstairs to pick up my key of one of my cars. Which one should I take? I choose my golden Lamborghini and also grab my black leder jacket to fulfill my outfit of a mafiagirl. My tatoos which are on my neck, my back and my wrist are visible now. Before I covered them up to stay undercover. I walk outside of my house and open the garage, get in my car and drive to our hall, where we have meetings with a lot of other gangs or important partners. As I drive down the street I see Jake walking there and he looks in the same moment in the car and our eyes meet each other. I hope he doesn't recognize me. If something like that happens, it means I have to kill him or something like that, so he can't tell it anyone.
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I park my car next to Jons and get off. I walk to the entrance and open the door with a lot of codes and a scan of my eyes. Not erveryone is allowed to come inside. I pass the little floor to the next door and hear voices from inside. They waited longer than I thought. I open the big door and look around to see the one Jon was talking about. "Hello! I got called because you wanna make a deal with us? What deal is it? I'm listening to you and choose in the end if it's good enough", I speak in the silent and get a look from the guy, which is really discriminating and arrogant. What is he thinking to look at me like that? Doesn't he know who I am? "And who are you to speak with me like that?", he really asks. Jon loudly breaths in and I feel my anger coming out. "So you don't know who I am and wanna make a deal?! I think your on the wrong adress! Does your little brain have any memorie who I could be or is it that empty that it only knows who you are? I'm Dark and no one is allowed to speak to me like that! Get out of my sight or I don't know what will happen! That deal is off, if you don't even know the leader of the biggest and most known gang!", I speak with coldness and anger. The eyes of this stupid guy get big and he looks really scared and afraid, because I'm so angry. I hate people like that! I had to skip classes because of that ashole! I could shoot on something! That's the reason I grab my pistol and shoot on the board which is exspecially for moments like this on the wall. "Can't you go faster or didn't you hear me clear enough?! Go away or you meet my little friend!", I scream and pointed on my pistol. He runs out of the room and I breath in and out to calm down.
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I stay there longer and shoot on boards to increase my skills. But then Jon is coming into the hall and walks directly to me. What happend now? "Alice we have another problem... Someone sneaked around and it looks like he's a spy...", he says and my face shows an impression of coldness. I nod and he goes beside of me in the other hall, where other members with that stupid guy are standing. I slow down my tempo and look on the person, who's kneeling down. I like this picture, when the people are helpless and with no other chance then the death sitting or kneeling infront of me! Does this sound weird? I think yes, but this happens with a normal girl, if she gets to the wrong persons and has to live a life like mine...
"Who are you?", I ask with my low and cold voice. He is shivering and stuttering: "M-my n-name is J-jake...", he answers and I'm shocked in the first moment, but I don't let it show. "Jake what? Your full name!", I speak. "Jake... Jake Almond...", he says and I feel not good. I have to find a way to let him go. What is he even doing here? Why is he sneaking around like a stupid teenager? You forget that he is a stupid ashole teenager... Oh yeah that makes everything better?!
"Why are you here and sneaking around in an area you are not allowed to be huh?", I wanna know. Then he looks up into my eyes and I can't say what the impression in them is meaning. "There was no sign which said that I'm not allowed to walk around here...", after he said this he put his hand fastly before his mouth and wants to say something again, but I'm faster: "What did you say? Listen I have not really a good day and I'm good in handling my pistol. I wouldn't provoke me more, if I would be you, that's a little tip. And now again: What are you doing here?", I speak emphatically. He is shivering more and more and gets that it's serious. "I just followed someone-" "What? Who? What does the person look like? Is the person somewehere outside?", I interrupt him. He looks back on the ground and doesn't answer me. "Speak!", is the only thing I say to him, as I grab his hair and raise it up, so he has to look into my eyes. I see the pain and the fear. He swallows and looks in shock as I come down to him. "So please answer me or I don't know, what will happen...", I say, so he shivers more than possible. "I first followed a girl from school, because she run away from me without saying why. Then I lost her a little bit, but saw her driving in a car, to better understand me it is an Lamborghini. I think it's not normal for her and followed her in my car. I also lost her again, but found the car here infront of the hall. So I searched her to speak with her and then I get caught and now I'm here...", he tells and I'm inwardly shocked. He recognized me! Fuck!
After a little break full of silence I speak to him: "So you're a stalker who trys to have a girlfriend? That doesn't give you the right to be here! What if the girl doesn't like you and runs away because of that. Actually I have to kill you for following her, because that is only what stalkers are doing and I hate these people. But maybe you can help us. In which school are you going?" "Dark what are you doing?", asks Jon with a confused look in his eyes. "Trust me, I have a plan...", I only say and come back to Jake. "Bring him to the basement", I order one of the members and he does like I say. Perfect! Then I can speak with him alone and can find out how much he knows.
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For a longer time I let him alone in the cold and dark room before I visit him there. I open the door, put on the lights and see him sitting there tied on the chair. "Oh how unfriendly from my people to tie you up like that. Wait I help you, but only if you are friendly to me...", he nods and I take away the restraints. "Thank you", he says silent and looks away. "Your welcome. I want to say sorry to you, but I had a really bad conversation beforehand and you came in a bad moment and sneaked around. You have to understand me. I hate people sneaking around and you were one of them. Then you spoke so slowly and didn't come to a point. I was annoyed! But now I'm calm and can speak with you again. In wich school are you going?", I tell him and he looks neutral in my eyes.
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After the conversation I know, that he doesn't know who I am, sure he knows I'm Dark, but not I'm also Alice. So everything is alright. I get him to say nothing about the place where the hall is and to think about coming to our gang. What? Whe have to think about the future! Actually he would be a really good member of the gang with a little bit of training. I could tell him that his little 'friend' coincidently has the same car like me and so on. He believed everything, so naiv! Now I'm sitting here at home and laugh, when I think about it. The day was really funny and relaxing, it could be like this every day.