𝐵𝓁𝒾𝓃𝒹 𝐿𝑜𝓋𝑒 - 𝙥𝙤𝙧𝙩𝙬𝙚𝙡𝙡 𝙖𝙪

𝐹𝓇𝒾𝒹𝒶𝓎 𝒯𝒽𝑒 𝟣𝟥𝓉𝒽

Knifes were thrown, bullets were shot. Screams of blood murder

"AHHH HELP!!!"

I gasp and I woke up. Yes, just a dream.

Ever since I got here with my mom, I have been staying in a hotel. I just don't want to get too attached if I'm gonna leave. But so far I have no idea what I'm gonna do. Ricky hasn't texted me since the flight, and it has been about a week since then. Ever since I arrived, I have been having these horrible nightmares.

Every one of them were different, but I would wake up before the nightmare ended. I have heard from my old therapist that if you finish the dream instead of waking up, maybe I could get to the root of why I'm having these awful dreams.

Aside from my dreams, I wanted to focus on something else, something more important. Ricky.

I made a pros and cons of going to salt lake list on what I should do, hopefully that will help.

PROS:

Be with the love of my life (Ricky)

Continue to see Mrs. Jenn, Carlos, Seb, Ashlynn, and the everyone else (Besides Ej and Nini)

CONS:

If I get into a relationship with Ricky, there could be some complications.

I could start new and fresh at a brand new school with my mom

I could see my mom more if I live with her

Where she lives is a bigger place then where I live, so if I wanna do musicals or become a dancer, I'm most likely to become more famous here.

There where more cons then pros, but I couldn't help but feel just the pro of me seeing Ricky could overpower all the cons I could think of. But this doesn't mean I have made up my mind though, I'm still deciding and very confused.

My hotel window slammed open knocking a empty picture frame off my nightstand. A gush of window poured into the room moving the pros and cons paper just enough for me to accidentally write on it with my pen. I couldn't help but notice that there was an X over Ricky's name.

I looked out the wind, and it was very foggy and rainy. It seemed like just a few minutes ago it was sunny. I checked my phone, and what day was it? Friday The 13th. Maybe that was just a coincidence.

I got up and shut the window, and sat back on the bed again. I grabbed the pros and cons paper and stared at it blankly. I really had no idea what to do.

I heard my phone chime. I jumped with happiness expecting it to be Ricky, but it was the last person I wanted to talk to. It was Ej Caswell.

"Hey Gina, I just wanted to say I'm sorry for what I did. It wasn't right and I have no excuse. I know you will never forgive me, and I understand that, but I just wanted to say I wish you well and hope you feel better." He texted me

It's too bad he has to waste such a good fake apology on me. Seems like he spent a lot of time planning on what to say, and sure, it would seem pretty real and touching to another one of his side chicks, but I knew it was all fake. I didn't accept it in one bit, I didn't even feel bad, because I knew it was fake.

"Quit trying Ej, It's never gonna work. You probably spent hours working on that text, but it was a waste of time, because I know its all fake. I wish you the worst. Goodbye!" I texted

He read it, but he didn't answer.

I shut my phone off and faced it upside down. I continued to stare at the pros an cons list as I heard another chime on my phone. I rolled my eyes and sighed really loudly. Expecting it to be Ej, I opened messages app frowning, but when I saw who it was from I was confused.

It was from Nini. She asked if we could talk. I really didn't want to talk to her if she was gonna be a snob, but I called her anyway.

"Hey Nini, If you gonna be a snob then I don't-" I started to say as she cut me off

She was sobbing so it was hard to make out her words, but I still understood.

"Gina I'm so sorry for being such a brat to you. I regret it so much, and I have to admit I lied and I said I was crying at the thought of you and Ricky together but I was really crying at the thought of losing you, and ever since you left I have been feeling so guilty and missed you so much. So Gina will you please forgive me, i understand if you don't accept it. I wouldn't accept it if I were you because I have been such a snob and I'm so sorry for that and I really-" She said really fastly with a lot of voice cracks.

"Hey, hey, take a breather. I forgive you Nini."

And just like that, I no longer rolled my eyes at the thought of Nini. I thought she was such a snob, but really she is such a sweet kindhearted person. She couldn't go a full week of being a brat to me.

We talked for hours, and I told her everything. Even me liking Ricky and how Ej cheated.

"I am still upset about the Ricky thing, because I do love him, but I really don't want to fight with you, so lets not bring it up please." She said

"I agree." I also said with smile, even though she couldn't see I was smiling.

New Pro:

Seeing my best friend Nini