Bad Company Blues - Bucky BarnesxOC

Part 8: moment of weakness

CW: Very brief mentions of drunk driving and death. Also brief mentions of alcohol, psychiatric hospitals/hospitalizations. AND S M U T... or is there? 🤔🤭

Bucky's eyes flutter open as daylight begins to fill the room. He feels a weight on his chest and looks down, seeing Eden laying with her head on his chest, her leg entwined in his as she sleeps soundly. A soft gasp escapes his throat and he realizes that his arms are wound around her. His heart begins to race.

Oh no no no no.

This is what he was afraid would happen, or he'd wake up with a raging hard-on pressed into her back. He still has one, but at least her body is nowhere near it. Eden moans softly in her sleep and her full lips part as a sigh escapes them. Bucky bites his lip, studying her sleeping face. She's really pretty when she's not telling him what a fucking asshole he is. All he'd have to do is dip his head and press his lips to hers. He was so close to kissing her the night of Zemo's party. He had to pull himself back because he knew she would slap him, and it would be deserved.

He wants to kiss her so badly.

She's sleeping soundly on his chest, any trace of hatred gone now that she's unconscious. Bucky bites his lip.

Nope. You can't think about her like this. You can't start to feel things for her. Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck!

This is not good. He was afraid of this. Steve warned him: they'll either kill each other or fuck it out. Bucky still isn't sure where Eden would stand on that proposition (she'd probably like to grab one of her knives and stick it through his gut), but Bucky definitely knows where he would fall.

Slowly, he slides out of bed. Eden lets out a disappointed, sleepy grunt as he stands up.

"Bucky," she moans, her eyes still closed.

He stops, muscles tense, as he looks down at her with a terrified expression.

Did she just moan my name?

He can't do this right now. Bucky adjusts his hardness in his jeans to relieve some pressure, grabs his boots and shoves his feet into them. He could jerk off in the shower. The bathroom is far enough away that she wouldn't hear him, but he doesn't want to do that.

Bucky looks at the clock. It's 7:00am. He should try and find a grocery store. Going outside in the blistering cold will help him with his problem. He can clear his head. Yeah. The fresh air will do him some good - much better than nestling under the blankets with a beautiful woman sleeping on his chest. An annoying, frustrating, gorgeous woman whose shampoo smells like lilacs and vanilla.

Bucky looks over his shoulder to see Eden sprawled out, snoring softly. He almost kicks his boots back off just to go and lie back in bed with her, but stops himself.

No. Go.

He finds his car keys in his jacket pocket and slips out the door, shutting it quietly behind him.

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Eden wakes up to the sound of the front door closing. At first, she's confused and feels an empty space beside her, and then she hears a sigh from the front of the apartment. Her brain begins to catch up with what's going on. Bucky walks inside carrying grocery bags, his hair damp and covered in snow. It's still dark in the apartment.

"Agh!" He grunts softly as he quietly stomps the snow off of his boots.

Eden props herself up.

"Bucky?" She croaks.