I've been Challenged Once, Given Coffee Twice

Via Crucis

Via Crucis

Oh God! It's heavy... the pain! I only need to rest for a second. A couple more steps and I'll be there at last.

The fine skin threads on my knee tear when I bend one of my legs to the floor. I can feel the sharp little stones digging in my exposed flesh as my knee touches the gravel.

"Aaaaaah!" Another slash breaks my back in two. First the rough leather. Then the pointy metal beads... Tear and rip apart. And I don't know what hurts the most, the whip blow or to scream for my jaw is broken and I've missed some teeth.

My eyes, barely opened, hurtfully stare at a man who nears to help me carry the humongous wooden beam. I would like to thank him but I have no strengths to talk after that last scream.

"Damned!" This last was an indecipherable curse... More like a broken moan. To curse who is the question.

Damn Him for offering me as a living sacrifice? It was written since the beginning of times and I knew it. I was able to change my mind at one point... Maybe Satan was right...

Damn me for not rejecting His commandment? Free will doesn't apply for me after all. I guess being His son doesn't guarantee any privileges after all in life.

Damn humanity? It's because of their wickedness and disobedience I've been treated like a filthy criminal, judged and sentenced to death. And they had the chance to save me in the trial but in the end is my life for theirs. I only hope it's worth every drop of blood I've spilled for them.

I have the chance to go and disappear. I can do that. I can call every seraph or archangel to take me out of this place. Written it is. But it seems every heavenly face hides away from me in this moment. I'm hideous, dirty, covered with all the sins and evils of this world.

"Argh!" I spit the mouthful of vinegar that was given to me. It makes me only more thirsty... I thought it was water. It was so bitter and sour now my mouth hurts even more... How fool of me! I could drink it all and in the end some of the pain would go.

I take a deep breath. There it is... The Calvary. The place where everything begins...

A/N I'm Christian by faith. This one was hard for me to write. I tried to humanize Jesus a little but keep him conscious of his divinity.