Can She fall in True Love with Her Best Friend? (NDubz)

Chapter 24 - Talks and Announcements

I cried myself to sleep last night faze did everything he could to sooth my pain but it wasn't working. I need time to myself to adjust to the mood I'm feeling to absorb all My emotions properly so I don't go crazy

I don't really think I got much sleep anyway everytime I looked at the clock it was only an hour on so I dosed but not proper sleep. It was the way and it had always been that way ever since I was younger I remember if I was ever upset or something had happened that I didnt like, that played with my emotions just took control of my entire body an Im sure I have insomnia

Faze was still passed out in bed at first i just lay there looking at him how could soneone so beautiful, handsome and georgious inside and out want to go out with me i

Mean im just so plain and ordinary compared to him what did he see in me?

Anyway i felt the need to connect to the world and let them know how i felt so I got on twitter and tweeted

I don't know what I'd do without my beau @iamfazer he's been my rock these past hours ... I just wanted to say I love you so much #soppy x

I got a lot of hate messages which set my temper off freedom of speach so i had battled against them the only difference was i didnt tweet anything i wouldnt have said to their faces however i think a bunch of what 10 years olds might have been a bit different compared to how they were online. I think they feel like keyboard warriors... It doesnt wash with me.

Of course i had some fans tweeting me waring me there would be a backlash for me in the media for arguing back to stupid childish insults but you me never one to shy away from a bit of trouble

Then there is the fans that obviously know me too well to warn me about my tweets, whats the wort thats going to happen really ohhh a mag writes 'Tulisa gives the haters abuse back' and if thats all im in the media for givignas good as they got then i can deal with that ...

Anyway .... Went off on a rant... they start tweeting me saying they were glad we were finally together and asking what was up so I replied to a few of them and before I logged off I wrote

I can't say how much my fans mean to me look you got me all emotional now *dries eyes* be back later mwahh

Faze was starting to wake up now and he pulled me closer to him and wrapped his arm around me.

Faze: you should have woke me babe

Nahh I'm was happy to just think

Faze: you know you can think out loud to me too though

I know I can but silent thinking was good today

Faze: you know what you told me last night...

Yea

Faze: you'd never told anyone before had you? I could tell you shouldn't have kept it quiet you can talk to me whenever you want you should know that

No I hadn't but it's hard to talk about you know, do you mind if we talk about it when I'm ready, I mean like properly talk about it?

Faze: we can never talk about it again if it's what you would prefer I dont want to upset you. Just one thing , who was it?

Thanks babe yea You know when I that thing for Adam at tommys with him and Andy well ...

Andy was stoned and Adam went to get the food, I nipped to the loo and tommy had followed me upstairs... and he had drugged my drink so...

I choked up and I couldn't say anymore and faze knew it so he just held me close to him. He knew I liked that.