Differences.

chapter five

I did as I was told and made myself comfortable; she told me to close my eyes, at first I was confused but obeyed.

“Right...Nifemi was you a happy child”

“I think so”

“I don’t want that as an answer, its either yes or no”

“No”

“And why is that”

“I was alone most of the time”

“How do you mean”

“My mum and dad travelled a lot so I was left at my auntie’s house or had a childminder come round”

“Did you like your aunties and childminder?”

“Yes”

I was kind of confused to why she was asking me those questions.

“Alright, were you ever afraid of someone?”

“Yes”

“Why”

“I can’t remember”

“What do you mean you can remember, open up to me”

“I can’t remember what she did ”

“She, a lady; what do you think she did”

“I can’t remember”

“Do you remember what she looked like?”

“I can’t remember anything” I said getting slightly annoyed

“Try”

“I CANT; I JUST CANT REMEMBER” I shouted

I opened my eyes and looked at Amanda with teary eyes; I grabbed my things and stormed out the room as she called after me. Till her voice was faint I turned a corner and slid down the wall crossing my legs towards me banging me head and growling in frustration to why I could not remember. I closed my eyes tight to try and think but nothing came to me. After 20 minutes of trying I wiped my eyes and walked out. Seeing how college was almost finished I took a bus to my brother’s house and got there within 30 minutes, I was in my own mind that I didn’t realise an old lady was talking to me

“Are you alright dear” she asked with a concerned look on her face. I responded by nodding and give a small smile; I walked past her and carried on with my journey. I texted Quinn to open the door and Ayo shortly came down to escort me to their apartment.

“You alright sis”

“Yeah, I’m fine”

“You looked confused” Ayo said opening the door and shutting it behind me.

“I wanna ask you both something”

“Ite come through to the living room Quinn is there”

I walked into the living room and saw Quinn on his Xbox; he turned it off once he saw me and sat down properly on the chair. Ayo went to go sit next to him and they looked at me with a concentration on their face.

“Do you guys remember when I was four?”

“Ah I think” they both said

“Who was the woman and don’t act as if you can’t remember because I know you do”

“Mum said we shouldn’t tell you” Quinn said standing up

“Well don’t have a right to know!” I shouted out

“Quinn she’s right tho”

“Nah I ain’t telling her shit, do you think I like remember what she did to her?” looking over a Ayo

“Please Quinn I want to know”

Quinn kissed his teeth and walked out leaving me with Ayo.

“I want to tell you but I just don’t want to make you remember”

“Fine I see how my family is now, bye I’m leaving”

I stood up and grabbed my bag from the floor. He didn’t even try and stop me; I walked out the flat and toward the bus stop. The bus came straight away and I sat downstairs, I arrived home and went straight to the living room.

“Mum what happened to me when I was four” I said on a verge of crying.

“Baby” she said getting up walking towards me whilst I walked back

“Mum just tell me”

“Just leave it in the past now”

“Mum but I want to know, it is so hard to ask, what did she look like?” I said looking at her with glassy eyes.

She didn’t even answer me, she focused her eyes back at the TV.

“Fine” I ran up the stair and slammed the door. I was more than hurt I was furious. I changed out my clothes and wore my PJ’s; I left my room and walked into Kaydee’s room where she was sitting up in her cot. When she noticed me she instantly smiled causing a smile to creep up on my face.

“Hey baby” I said softly caring her out her cot, she gripped tighter to my shirt putting her head on my shoulder. I walked out her room and down the stairs into the living room and gave her to mum.

“Mum I’m sorry”

“No I am sorry daughter”

I sat next to her and we both watched TV together.

i know this ones kind of short but the next one will be longer