Heartbreak Weather -N.H

just fucking fix it

Part of a triple update!! Read what a time first!!

Chapter 16

Niall's POV:

I'm pacing around in the bathroom with thoughts flooding my brain. I can't do this. I can feel it starting and I can't let it happen. I told myself no more relationships. She eases my mind and makes me feel happy. Even her snarky remarks make me feel something. I run my hands through my hair as I let out a deep breath. I turn the faucet on and splash water onto my face. I can't keep doing this. I'm falling for her. Why am I this way? Why can't I be normal? I have to distance myself from her for a little bit just to get the thoughts out of my head. I shake my arms and take another deep breath and release it before walking back out into the living room.

They are making conversation but I don't really focus in on what they are saying. I grab Skylar's phone and send the video to myself before handing it back to her. She gives me a look like she knows something is wrong. I shake my head at her before I run upstairs to grab my phone. I'm about to leave her room until I see her standing in the doorway.

"Everything okay?" She asks politely. She looks at me with so much sincerity it kills me. She's amazing and I have enjoyed every moment I have spent with her but it stops now.

"Yeah all good." I tuck my hands into my pockets and rock back and forth.

"Did I do something wrong?" She asks and guilt washes over me. I can't tell her I'm starting to like her and then leave that would be fucked. I'll keep it to myself.

"No, no of course not." I say feeling soft. I wanna rush over and grab her hands but I don't. I stay in my spot. I started to feel myself wanting to open up to her and talk more and that terrifies me. I'm not an open person yet I wanna spill everything to her. I wish I could be close with her like Harry is.

"Can we not do this?" She motions her hand back and forth between us.

"Do what?" I ask stopping my movements.

"Everything was fine earlier. We were having fun and now your being weird." She walks further into the room but still keeps a distance from me.

"How am I being weird?" I ask defensively.

"Niall, what is going on?" She asks kindly.

"Nothing is going on could you stop badgering me." I huff annoyed with the way I feel. As if I'd tell her when I never wanted to feel anything in the first place.

"What is your problem?" She crosses her arms over her chest and rolls her eyes. That damn eye roll. Sometimes it's cute and sometimes it just pisses me off.

"I'm not talking about it Skylar, drop it!" I raise my voice and start to walk out of her room. She grabs onto my arm and I see the look of plea in her eyes.

"Please don't do this again." She says and I pull my arm from her grasp.

"I gotta go." I say and I try to push the look on her face out of my head. I'd rather her hate me anyway. It will make it easier for me to get over whatever this is.

I rush down the stairs to see Harry and Kiara stand from the couch. They both look at me but I'd rather not talk.

"Hey mate you good?" Harry asks but I keep walking. I need out of here.

"Gotta head out." Is all I say before I shut the door behind me and hurry to my car. I grip onto my steering wheel to where my knuckles turn white. I speed out of the drive and rush to get home. I take deep breath's trying to calm my nerves but I'm pissed off and upset.

"What the fuck!" I yell to myself in my car. I throw my head back into the seat and grunt with frustration.

Once I've made it home and I've been pacing for a while I stop what I'm doing. What the hell have I done? What the fuck is wrong with me? I freaked out and now she'll probably never talk to me again. I'd hate me too honestly. All she was trying to be was my friend. She was kind and I pushed her down. Whenever I feel my walls being knocked down I get defensive. I always push people out before it's too late. If I don't push I get hurt. I need this day to be over with. It was amazing till I fucked it up because I got scared. I'll never be able to fix this. Maybe it's better this way or at least that's what I keep telling myself. But the shitty thing is that I've only been away from her for an hour and I already miss her presence. I'm fucking screwed.

Lexi is already making her way back in and it's pissing me off. I'm not even choosing to think about her she just makes herself known in my thoughts. Skylar helped my thoughts and all I had to do was be a friend to her. I snap out of my thoughts to feel my phone vibrating in my pocket. I pull it out to only see Harry's name.

"What did you do to her?" Harry asks sternly.

"What are you talking about?" I ask dumbly.

"She won't come out of her room and she won't talk to me. She always talks to me, so what did you do?" He asks again wanting an answer.

"I just locked up my emotions and I communicated it the wrong way." I sigh into the phone. I don't need to have a romantic relationship with her but having her as a friend would be nice and I was getting there till I shut down.

"Well makeup, be friends or whatever I don't care just fucking fix it." Harry says into the phone then hangs up.

I throw my phone down onto my bed before I climb in and wrap myself in blankets. I lay there thinking for a while before I grab my phone. I call Skylar but no answer. I call again.. no answer. Yep she hates me.