Heartbreak Weather -N.H

beauty and the beast

A/N: it's a long cute one. I hope your heart burst just as much as mine did writing it. It's too cute. I'm sorry if there are any errors!! I love you all!! <3333

Chapter 35

February 21, 2019

Skylar's POV:

The sunlight shines into my room as I slowly open my eyes. When I roll over I instantly get sad that Niall isn't here with me. He went out with Lewis last night and I stayed home. Kiara was here for a little bit last night but she ended up leaving. Of course Harry once again wasn't home. I don't really mind staying alone, I just get sad. Gives me too much time to sit and think.

I get up take a quick shower, brush my teeth, fix my hair, then get dressed. I have to push myself to do these things sometimes when I'm alone. When no ones with me I could stay in my bed all day. With the day I'm not ready for getting closer and closer it makes me sad. I know I need to think about it. I know I need to talk about it. I know and I've been trying to figure how to talk to Niall but I'm scared. I'm scared of what he will say or think.

I decide to lay back down in bed and scroll through my phone. I have a text from Niall making me smile.

"My car officially smells like roses and vanilla because of you."

I hope the way I am feeling right now never fades.

"Good, that was my plan," I respond back to him with a cheeky smile on my face.

"I'll see you in a little bit petal."

I lay my phone down on the bed and stare up at the ceiling. I can't stop smiling.

"Sky I made breakfast," a voice speaks as my door opens.

"You're home!" I sit up in bed with a smile feeling happy that I get to see my best friend.

"Yeah, are you okay?" He asks just checking on me. He walks further into my room and sits down on my bed next to my legs.

"Uh, yeah why?" I ask because truly it depends on what he's asking. Stella wise? No I'm not really okay. Harry wise? Well I miss him and it makes me sad but he seems happy. Niall wise? I'm very happy. Friend wise, I'm happy. So which section does he want to know?

"Just feel like we haven't really talked recently so I wanted to check," he brings his finger up and flicks the tip of his nose.

"Yeah I know, I miss our Harry and Sky days," I say speaking the truth. A fear of mine is us drifting apart from each other and it's something I'd never want. I need my best friend. He hated my last relationship within reason. He had every right to. After things with Harry and I didn't work like I'd wanted, I took a break from seeing anyone. Then I met Luke. He seemed super sweet and loving. But I was so, so wrong. Harry doesn't hate anyone but Luke, he absolutely hates. I don't talk about it much as it's in the past but I didn't date after that. I was way too scared. As if things couldn't get worse, not much longer after that everything with Stella happened. Luke hated that I spent so much of my time with Harry. But I wasn't willing to give up my best friend for him. I've bottled so much shit up and pushed it to the back of my brain to just not think about it. I know it's not healthy but I'll figure it all out eventually.

Niall is the first person I've met that I could see myself in a relationship with. Maybe voicing my fears to him will help settle my nerves. I just don't want to throw a lot on him. Family drama, Stella, ex-boyfriend, it's a lot.