Heartbreak Weather -N.H

drink to forget

Part of a triple update!! Read what a time first!!

Chapter 17

January 26, 2019

Saturday

Skylar's POV:

It's been 5 days that I've spent ignoring each and every one of Niall's calls and texts. I thought about blocking his number but I couldn't bring myself to do it. I don't know why I'm letting this bother me so much. He's so confusing. At first he just kept to himself and didn't care about me but then he started coming around more and I got to see a sweet and caring side of him. We hung out and it was fun I actually enjoyed being around him.

Then it all blew up in my face.

If I talk to him that means it can happen again. I'd rather not allow myself to get close to someone that can just walk out whenever. I'm lucky to have Harry and Kiara they have stuck by my side through so much. Harry has only left the house a few times and checks on me every hour. I haven't left my room. I'd rather lay in here and watch movies or read. Harry joins me usually but sometimes he gives me space. I have my moments like this often. Sometimes it's every month or every couple months. It just sneaks up on me but Harry is always there. Harry walks into my room with a glass of water and sits it down on my side table. He looks at me after sitting it down and puts his arms down at his sides.

"Sorry" he says before rushing out of my room. I sit up more confused until Kiara walks in and I sit back against the head board again.

"Okay so I know-" Kiara starts.

"No whatever it is, the answer is no." I say before turning my focus back onto the television.

"Sky seriously you need to get out of bed." She says sitting down next to me.

"And you need to shower." She says scrunching up her nose.

"This is why I like Harry, he didn't comment on my need of a shower." I roll my eyes and turn the tv up louder.

"Skylar-" Kiara says and I turn the volume up even more.

"Skylar Michelle." She says and up the volume goes until she rips the remote out of my hand and turns the tv off.

"What the hell!" I say jumping forward to steal the remote back but she doesn't give.

I toss the blankets off of me and march downstairs. Harry is standing next to the island in the kitchen with a cup of coffee.

"Kick her out." I say pointing upstairs. They both do this all the time. Just leave me be. Let me stay in my dark room and watch cartoons. What's so wrong with that?

"I'm not doing that." Harry says moving around the kitchen.

"She just wants to help Michelle." Harry says sitting his mug down.

"No, don't pull the Michelle card right now. Only my best friend can call me that and you aren't that right now." I cross my arms over my chest. I know I'm being a child but I'm sad and I wanna feel sad. I felt like I was gaining a new friend and then he just walked out like it was nothing. Yes, he is also incredibly hot and my mouth waters when I think about him but that's beside the point. We were becoming friends and he ruined it. Ugh men are trash, all of them.

"Ouch that hurt." Harry shakes his head at me but I'm just frustrated. Kiara has now entered the kitchen and I feel trapped.

"Sky you need to leave the house. I refuse to let you sink into your dark hole. It was bad last time and I don't wanna see you get to that point again." Kiara says and I understand what she's saying but I'm stubborn it's who I am.

"I'm fine." I mumble grabbing Harry's coffee. I take a sip and instantly regret it spitting it back into the cup. Fuck, it's straight black coffee. The bitter taste in my mouth makes me want to vomit. Usually he throws creamer or sugar in there, or at least when I'm around in case I steal his drink. I push the mug back towards Harry who has a smirk on his face.

"That's disgusting." I say staring at the coffee.

"I don't want it now, you spit in it." Harry says motioning towards the mug.

Harry and I continue back and forth about coffee but really I'm just trying to get out of the other conversation.

"Can both of you shut up about coffee. Skylar seriously you're not getting out of this that easily." Kiara says crossing her arms.

Harry and I both stop talking and focus on Kiara. The look on her face is full of worry and I feel bad. I know they just want to help but it's hard for me sometimes.

"Just come out with us please. I know you don't really like going out that much but I promise you will have fun. Let loose Skylar come on. You are 22 start living like it. She wouldn't want you to live this way." She says and now I really want to vomit. Not from disgust but from pain.

"Kiara don't." Harry says knowing exactly how I feel right now. I shake my head and know what Kiara said was true.

"Don't talk about her please. Don't bring her into this. I'll go but please don't do that. No more mentioning her. I'll go and you're buying all my drinks. This better be fun." I say pointing at her.

The thoughts of her are roaming through my brain as I walk upstairs to go shower. I know she'd want me happy and she wouldn't want me trapping myself in my room but that doesn't mean I want to hear it. It burns and my chest feels heavy. Now all I wanna do is drink to forget the pain I'm feeling.