Djorella Naomi Alcaraz
04:11 AM
Djorella Naomi: I don't know how to start.
Djorella Naomi: This past few weeks, rather months, that we've been in contact are surprisingly comforting.
Djorella Naomi: It's nice to wake up with good morning texts and stuffs.
Djorella Naomi: Siguro nagtataka ka kasi hindi ako nagrereply sa iyo nitong mga nakaraang araw. I'll be honest with you. I blocked you.
Djorella Naomi: Sorry. Sorry sorry sorry!
Djorella Naomi: Hindi ko na kasi kaya. Pinag-isipan ko 'to ng maigi. Kung tutuusin, hindi ko naman na kailangan mag-explain sa iyo kung bakit kita blinock at iba-block ulit. Kaso hindi kaya ng konsensya ko na basta na lang gawin 'yon sa iyo. Kaya ito ako ngayon, nagpapaalam sayo.
Djorella Naomi: Sobrang nasasaktan din ako sa ginagawa kong 'to ngayon. Pero kung hindi ngayon, kailan ko pa gagawin, 'di ba? Maybe now is the right time to do this. Maybe now is the right time to end this. So, para sa ikatatahimik natin pareho, ako na tatapos nito.
Djorella Naomi: Alam kong sawang-sawa ka na na marinig sa'kin 'to pero, I don't deserve you. You're too good to be true to me. Hindi ako karapat-dapat sa lahat ng ginagawa mo para sa'kin. All of the efforts you've done is highly appreciated. Thank you for everything! Thank you for your kindness and attention. Thank you that despite of my rejection and abandonment you still choose to stay. Hindi ka natinag sa lahat ng pananakot ko sa'yo. And by that, I felt really special. And bad at the same time, because no matter what I do, I cannot reciprocate and/or return it the same way.
Djorella Naomi: I feel bad, too, kasi alam kong kahit na sinong babae hihilingin na sana mayroong taong magmamahal at iintindi sa kanila tulad ng ginawa mo sa'kin. Pero maliban sa appreciation, masyado na kita na-take for granted. At mas masakit yun sakin. Hindi ko deserve yung mga effort mo. Sobrang nakakakonsensya talaga.
Djorella Naomi: Maraming maraming salamat sa lahat! Hindi ko makakalimutan lahat ng pagpapahalagang ipinaramdam mo sa'kin. Sobrang thank you talaga sa lahat! And I'm really really sorry for taking you for granted.
Djorella Naomi: Naaalala ko pa yung sinabi mo nung nakaraang gabi, you are fine being worthless if you think it will be worth it. Sinabi mo yun nung sinabi ko sa'yo na know your worth so that no one can make you feel worthless. Now, I'm telling you, I'm not worthy of your worthlessness. YOU ARE WORTHY! It's just that your worth doesn't meet mine. I think we're parallel lines. We're not destined to meet. May you find that someone whose willing to intersects the line for you. Someone who will make you feel worthy and loved, like you deserve.
Djorella Naomi: You deserve to be happy, Jin. I'm deeply sorry for causing you trouble and all. I'll pray for you! I hope that when the right time comes, we'll meet. Or we'll see each other. Or maybe, in the next lifetime. Or when we reincarnated, I don't know. When that happens, sana... sana kaya ko ng pantayan man lang yung mga nagawa mo. Sana maibalik ko na siya. Sana hindi na kita masaktan ulit.
Djorella Naomi: I'll wish for your peace and happiness! Thank you for everything. And I'm so so sorry.
