"It hurts really bad. Every...time...I use...THEIR powers...I feel all the pain I made then feel...and it's the...worst...feeling...These powers don't belong to me. My power is heating...controlling the water...freezing it...are theirs...and...very time I...use them...I feel all...that...pain...they felt...not only when...I...murdered them...but also...the feelings...that I hurt them...I betrayed them. And now I know how they felt...that's my...punishment. I deserve it...oh my God..." I started crying again. "It hurts...please...make it stop...it hurts..." tears rolling down my cheeks. It hurt...I couldn't think of anything else, just the pain. Then I felt someone pushing me into their arms. It was Newt. All this time, he was just staying quiet. Not saying a thing. Just listening all that bloody crap. And now he's pulling me into his arms, again without saying anything. Why in the world would he do that? I'm a bloody murderer. I kept crying in his chest. Then I heard Thomas and Minho walking away. Ofcourse they did. Why would they stay? And then we were the two of us.
Newt's Pov:
A minute or so passed from when Tommy and Minho left. They wanted to leave us alone for a while. To make things clear. Then they would return. Rikki had stop crying. I was just holding her in my arms tightly. Her head rested on my chest. I buried my head in her messy hair. I didn't want this to end. I didn't dare to say anything. I didn't want her to be sad. Not because of me. She had been through enough crap. A murmure interrupted my thoughts. I leaned over her, "What did you say love?". She got up slowly, in a sitting position, freeing herself from my arms. Come on! That's why I didn't want to say a bloody thing! Although it couldn't last forever right? Her eyes were still wet. She took a deep breath. "Why are you still here?". She looked me deep in my eyes. I stuck. I didn't know what to answer. I didn't want to say anything dumb and hurt her but I also wanted her to know exactly the way I feel for her. "Rikki...I don't care if you were a bloody murderer. That was a lot time ago. I know that you've change. I know that you don't want that. I've told you a million times, how much I believe in you...in the girl that I know...and that girl...is not a murderer". As I finished, I saw a tear rolling down her cheek. I wiped it away. I wanted her to know everything. Now it was time. I leaned forward, holding her with my hand. She did the same. It was time. Finally I could taste those sweet, red lips. We came closer and closer. She glanced quick in my eyes, then at my lips, as I did. I could feel her breath, my lips inches away from hers and then- "Newt..." I heard her. She pulled back and pulled my hand away from her face. "...I...can't". No...she didn't. Not again. Why is she bloody doing that every shucking time? Why? I tried E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G. Come on! Again? Seriously? Disappointment and range started flooding me. " No. Ofcourse you can't" I pulled myself back and rested my back on the trunk of the tree and my hands on my knees. "No, Newt...you...can't understand-". I cute her off, my anger ready to explode. "No Rikki, YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND! I've tried everything. I did everything I could to show you that there're people who actually care about you. I...care about you. I made a promise to myself. Never stop trying, because I have faith and YOU taught me that. I have faith that someday maybe you notice how much I like you Rikki, but seriously I don't bloody know what's happening inside your head. You keep playing with me and I'm sick of it, so when you finally end up to decide what to do, just come-" my yelling was cut off from her and before I could understand what was happening, I felt her lips kissing mine. An explosion of emotions rushed through me. Then I felt her hands around my neck. I moved mine around her waist. Oh my God. She finally did it. She finally kissed me. YES! She kissed ME! I finally tasted those red lips and I didn't want it to end. But then she pulled back. "If you think this is a game, then you won it" she said looking me straight in the eye.Your Pov:
Oh my God...I did? Did I just...Oh crap! WHY DID I DO THAT? No. No. No. No. Now how am I supposed to look at him in the eyes again. Shit! I wanted to turn into bubbles and disappear. Oh God...I don't even know if I wanted this. If I liked it! Arg!!!
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FanfictionA girl arrives in the Glade. Not just any girl. You are different. You are special. No ordinary girl. Everyone is afraid of you at first, but then everything changes. So you just let magic happen...