stained heart

thoughts

WARNING: this chapter includes mentions of self harm and scars.

I walk into the bathroom, my mind filling with thoughts. I shouldn't have gave her kisses on her scars, she must think i'm weird. Shit way to mess it up. I sat down on the floor for a bit. Why did she help me? I could be such a bitch to her and she still helped me. Honestly i don't even want to imagine what could've happen if she didn't show up. At least i'm away from him. I slowly get up and head towards the mirror, i looked like ass. I grabbed some makeup wipes that i brought with me and wiped the running mascara off. I'm still in shock about the scars that were marked on her wrist. She also said she thought i was.. perfect? I couldn't help but smile at her words. Did she really mean that? Me? Perfect? Every time that i would look at her i thought she was perfect, she's effortlessly pretty i mean without makeup she's still hot. I brushed my weird thinking away as i got in the shower, feeling the cold water hit my scars.

Thoughts flooding thru my head. A whole lot can happen in an hour. I could feel butterflies in my stomach as we hugged. I meant it when i said i thought she was perfect, she really is or else i wouldn't have fallen in love with her in the first place. It hurts me so much knowing she went thru all of that and i'm so fucking glad that he's away from her now. I took a deep breathe and opened my phone and saw a bunch of messages of Jay asking me if everything's okay. I replied that's it's okay now and he should get some rest. I closed my phone and then heard a door creak open. Amber came out wearing some shorts and a tank top. "I'm gonna take a shower, get some rest." I said smiling at her. She returned the favor by smiling back before getting on the bed. Even now she looks absolutely stunning. How can a person be so beautiful? I walked in the bathroom and took a quick shower, removing all the mascara that had been drooping from my eyes. When i walked out i see her in laying in the bed, blanket covering her. I turned the light off before getting in next to her and for the first time it wasn't awkward but more so comforting. "Goodnight Amb." I said to the blonde with a smile. "Goodnight Mav." She said in return. She fell asleep almost immediately, she must be tired of this hell of a day.

The next morning i woke up to someone opening the door. Me and Mavis both jumped out of bed in panic to see who it was. "Chill, the teacher told me to check you." Jay said closing the door behind him. I let out a relieved sigh before sitting comfortably on the bed. I looked at Mavis who was also sort of relieved. "Everything good?" The boy asked as he sat on the edge of the bed. "Yeah uhm it was a weird night i don't really want to talk about it." I told him a bit embarrassed. "That's fine with me i just bought you guys breakfast and because of yesterday us three are aloud to stay in the hotel instead of going to the beach again." Jay explained to us. "Oh you guys can go i'll be okay." I said reassuring them. I didn't want them to miss this trip because of me. "No we both want to stay." Jay said with a warm smile planted on his face. "Eat up and then we can chill." Jay said handing us some waffles. Me and Mavis smiled before sharing the waffles that he had got us. Never in a million years i thought that i would be hanging out with these two dorks, but here we are.