stained heart

chaotic

The next morning i woke up, feeling like total shit. My head was pounding and i had a weird taste in my mouth. Not like i didn't recognized this feeling. I looked beside me where Mavis was laying, peacefully sleeping. I sat up more comfortably and all the memories came flooding back. Me drinking, Noah and the dancing, me dancing with Mavis. Shit. I know i could've said some stuff but i can't exactly remember what. I sighed before grabbing my phone, a bunch of notifications from instagram. I already know, from experience that this can't be good. I clicked through a few until i finally found someone who had posted a video tagging both me and Mavis. I hesitatingly clicked on it and started watching the video.

"Your drunk." Mavis said laughing.

"Doesn't mean i don't want to dance." I said

My hands were on her hips as hers were on my shoulder, both of us laughing and swaying our hips to the beat. The video ended. I scrolled to the comments, a few people just saying how hot we look, gross. A few people calling us gay, predictable and a few people saying how embarrassed i'm gonna be when i see this, incorrect. I'm not embarrassed, people have the audacity to assume that i'd regret going. Instead i liked the video and posted it on my story. Bold move but whatever. Suddenly i heard a small groan, i looked to my side to see Mavis opening her eyes. She looks directly at me before speaking up. "You look like shit." She said. "Thanks, i feel like shit." I said in response and rolled my eyes. She just sighed in response. "You saw it didn't you?" She asked me and by the tone i already knew what she was referring to. "Yeah, what about it?" I asked. "You aren't mad?" She asked me more surprised. "What no! why would i be?" I asked. Why did she think i was mad about it? I mean people expected it in the comments but still offensive. "I even reposted it on my story for bitches to see." I said laughing. "Damn that's bold." She said in return laughing with me. Suddenly someone came thru the door. "The fuck?" I said not knowing who it is. "Hey bitches." Jay said in a sarcastic tone. "What got you in a good mood?" Mavis asked laughing. "No idea anyway, the fuck happened on the dance floor yesterday?" He asked straight forward. I could see her freeze and so did i.

Fuck, i knew he would question it. "Uhm.." I mumbled. Shit. "We were just uhm dancing you know?" Amber asked. "Like friends." She spoke again. "Awh you consider us your friends?" Jay asked teasing her. She rolled her eyes with laughter as she threw a pillow directly at him. I laughed at the two, fighting as always. "We're leaving tomorrow aren't we?" I asked, bringing the attention to me. "Uh yeah tomorrow we're gonna have to pack our shit." Jay said rolling his eyes. I hear Amber groan before falling back on the bed. "Awh you don't want to leave your roomie?" Jay teased. "Shut the fuck up- bro im literally her neighbor so it doesn't make a difference." Amber explained with a smirk. She's right, our windows are directly facing each other too.
"So you will miss her." Jay teased. "Fuck you." Amber said rolling her eyes. "Our windows are directly facing each other too." I said to them. "Nice keep your window open so i can see you change." Amber said with laughter as she rolled her eyes. "Sure, i'll give you the best view." I answered back with a smirk. I just see Jay looking at us with a raised brow but he shrugged it off. "Uhm.. the teacher told me earlier that uhm Luke woke up." Jay said nervously.

My heart skipped a beat. Even hearing his name makes me feel uncomfortable. "Oh." is all i could blurt out. "He's gonna be expelled." Jay said this time, still in the same tone. I took a second to answer, shit he got expelled. "Nice." is all i could say with a smile. "You good?" Jay asked me. "Yeah let's just talk about something else or else i may want to get drunk again." I said more so in a joking way but they know i wasn't lying. "Okay what do you want to do?" Jay asked me. Honestly i felt like shit and i'm really fucking tired. "Sleep." I said plainly  before getting comfortably in the bed. I hear Mavis softly chuckle before getting up to sit on the floor with Jay.

She looked so cute. Me and Jay talked for a few minutes until he glanced over to Amber, to make sure she was asleep. "Mk don't play dumb, the fuck happened on the dance floor?" He asked me with a smirk. "What- we danced?" I answered him back. "Mavis." He repeated. I sighed in defeat before speaking up. "Honestly i-i don't know she was drunk? so it didn't mean anything." I said with a sigh. "You know when some people are drunk they do things they'd want to do when they're sober but not brave enough you know?" He explained. "But you were sober" He said with a smirk. Shit. "What- i only danced so she wouldn't whine later." I lied. I actually really fucking wanted to dance with her. But Jay could see right through me. "Mhm sure.. you guys would be cute together." He said with a chuckle. I lightly punched his arm as i rolled my eyes. Suddenly we hear a little yawn, which im guessing is Amber as i turned around to see her looking at me annoyed. "Shut the fuck up." She said before slamming her head back on the pillow. "Were you awake this whole time?" I asked in panic. "No, why? were you talking about me?" She asked with a smirk. "Nah don't worry." I answered with a smile, she just shrugged it off and started groaning while turning around to sleep. "Is she always this noisy when sleeping? and don't make a sex joke." Jay asked as he rolled his eyes. "Nah normally when we're sleeping she's quiet." I answered.

"Maybe it's because your not next to her, awh." Jay said.

"Jay!" I screamed while lightly punching his shoulder.

"If you guys don't shut the absolute fuck up i swear to god i'll knock you the fuck out." Amber groaned out.

"Damn you need coffee or sum." Jay said laughing. Amber was getting annoyed and got out of bed, sitting next to us. "You look like shit." Jay said. "i fucking know." Amber answered flipping him off. These two are chaotic, i love it. I looked over to Amber, messy blonde hair everywhere with a frown on her face. "So uhm me and Chloe kind of started dating." Jay said out of nowhere. "WHAT" I practically screamed. "I know." Amber answered with a smirk. "She told me." she said again. "Look because Chloe lives pretty fucking far, we both aren't gonna drive like two hours to set up a date so we just started talking and well i have a girlfriend." He explained. "Jealous." I said rolling my eyes at him. "Oh shut up you'll get a girlfriend soon enough-" He said playfully until he just realized what he admitted. I see Amber's eyes widen at the word 'girlfriend'. Me and Jay both looked over to Amber who was just sitting there with her eyes widen. "Shit uhm.." Jay started but got cut off.

"I'm not a fucking monster, that's fine i really couldn't care less." I told him but really.. i cared a fucking lot. Not that it makes me feel disgusted or weirded out. It makes me feel a feeling that i haven't felt before. "Well you did kind of making our lives a living hell." Jay said in return with a sweet tone. "Oh yeah.." I said ashamed. "Why'd you do it?" Mavis suddenly asked me. I sighed before speaking up. "Look when i first started this school the only people i was introduced to were them, i didn't know anyone else so i just followed them around and did what they did. Soon i became 'the popular girl' or whatever. People liked me and i got together with Luke but we all know how that went down.. anyways i'm really sorry like seriously." I explained, i knew i had to do this sooner or later. Instead of the nasty reaction that i thought i was gonna get i got two friendly smiles. "It's okay, now your one of us.. the loners." Jay said sarcastically. "Dumbass" I laughed along with them.