Another night
Another 2am spent thinking
I had a friend once
She was so sweet
Far from innocent
In fact she taught me all I know about sex and drugs
Things got complicated and I jumped ship
I was a coward and I got distracted
So tangled in love I forgot
I had chances
Too fucking many
But my pride was at fault
I still wonder if I could have saved you
I was going to text you but I was ashamed of my actions
Pride and shame
I blame myself for your death
You went missing and I just knew it was bad
I knew it wasn't an accident
It snowed and as I was walking my dog I cried
I knew you were out there in the cold
Snow covering your body
When they found your body I cried for days
I still cry
I know you couldn't handle it anymore
I don't blame you for your actions
You lived a vibrant life
Your mom tried so hard to find you
For a whole week you were missing
My heart breaks for her
I sent her a message
I made sure she knew you were an amazing person and friend
What I wouldn't do to save you
I miss you so bad
I still have our build a bear
I hope you found peace
I truly do
You will always be the friend that go away
I love you Megan 💙
