I find it amusing that I still stay in this world
So much is telling me to just get up and leave
Just end this suffering
Yet I stay
I stay, bite my lip and close my eyes
Knowing tomorrow is just another day
I'll wake up and fake every feeling
Every smile
Then go to my room and sit in a ball
Ill stay there for hours just thinking
Is it worth it? Is it worth fighting or not?
These days I don't believe it is
The loss of blood down the drain
The tears on my pillow
My shaking breath
It all screams no
I had the idea to tell you the truth
How I was falling apart and you didn't respond
These games you play with my mind are too much for me to handle
I avoid you to give you the space you seem to be asking for
But then you say you didn't want me to go
I'm so confused
If I left it would hurt you
But I'm sure you will find someone worth your time
I'm not worth the struggle
Not worth anyone's time
I just take from people
You want to know how I really feel?
You aren't strong enough for that
You would worry and try to help
But you deserve to smile and be happy
Even if that is at my expense
Ignorance is bliss right?
