ℝ𝔸ℕ𝔻𝕐 & 𝕁𝔸ℂ𝕂𝕃𝕐ℕ 𝕆ℕ𝔼𝕊ℍ𝕆𝕋𝕊🏳️🌈

Sex education (Randy)

RYAN'S POV
"I-" I started to speak just to be immediately interrupted by my dad. "Yesterday the teacher told me that-" and for the umpteenth time I was interrupted by my dad. Evidently what he had to say was more important than what the philosophy teacher had told me the day before at school.

"I got an A in yesterday's essay," my brother Shaun said and immediately all attention turned to him. Everyone was happy for the umpteenth essay in which he had taken one of the highest marks. He was very good, he was smart, he always received compliments, compliments reserved for him and then there was me. I was... I was okay.

"Today we had sex education in school" no one said anything, continuing to eat and talk about the Shaun's last essay.

It was very bad to be surrounded by people and yet to feel alone, but now I was slowly getting used to that too. I was afraid of loneliness, the idea of ​​being alone terrified me, but as my parents had told me, my fear was stupid, not even a child would have been so afraid.

"I have a bit of-"

"As soon as you get back from school you have to go grocery" I nodded, taking the grocery list and finishing breakfast. My parents and brother went upstairs, leaving me alone for breakfast.

I just wanted to say that I was a bit scared for the sex education class, I needed someone to tell me it would be okay and I shouldn't have worried. The only thing I had received was the grocery list. Well done Ryan, you got this.

Sometimes I felt like a sketch of a drawing, nobody cared. What has always been important in a drawing, the thing that pleases the eyes is the final result. I was the draft and my brother was the final masterpiece.

"I'll take your brother to school, remember to wash the dishes"

"Can you drive me too, please?"

"The dishes" without saying anything, with my head down, I went to the kitchen, starting to wash the dishes as my mom had asked me.

***

Arriving at school, only a few minutes late, I saw my mom's car still parked in the school parking lot, a coffee in her right hand immediately caught my attention.

My mom loved coffee and when she drove my brother to school every morning, even though she was a year older than me, she took all the time she wanted to have a coffee in the car. I always wondered why she took my brother to school and not me too... we went to the same school after all.

Before walking in the classroom my attention was drawn to two teachers arguing about something. One of the two teachers was young, never seen before, the other teacher, on the other hand, was the teacher of my first lesson of the day.

I walked in the classroom and the moment I closed the door all eyes moved on me. It didn't take long before the laughter began to echo throughout the room.

I felt so insecure of myself and day after day there was always something or someone that made me feel even worse.

"Good morning guys" the teacher said to the class, we all stood up as we should to greet her. "He is the sex education teacher and today he will be the one to give the lesson"

"But he looks like he's sixteen," commented one of the boys sitting in the back seat of the classroom. Only at this moment did I raise my eyes to the teacher, unable to fail to notice a hint of sadness and insecurity behind those sweet features.

After a few seconds, looking really long, the brown-haired man with a few hints of blonde in a couple of locks here and there woke up from what seemed like a short but deep thought.