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We broke up lmao.

December 30th, 2021 2:26 p.m
*finished January 9th, 2022 2:00 p.m*

I don't even feel like explaining what happened. But the next day after we broke up this guy (who's always asked me out jokingly or saying he wants Mar to die) asked me out.

I said yeah cs I thought bro was joking but he's not apparently.

*I broke up with him after two days cs nigga did percs. He stopped cs I talked to him about it*

I can't explain how embarrassing it was. How it feels to get added to a group call with 3 of your closest friends and they tell you this.

And it happened for months.

Thinking about it I'm ready to cry again. When they told me at first I was high so I couldn't cry, I kept laughing about it, laughing at myself.

I was out of town, it didn't make it any better that my cousins were being mean asf to me. I was sensitive and they insisted on basically bulling me.

I hate how fuckin small I am. I just listened to him read stuff he wrote about me but I still have this feeling that he never loved me.

I wonder if I truly deserve to be loved, or if everyone will just fuck me over. I dated Ziy for 2 damn days and he still cheated.

I somewhat hate myself, the urge to hurt myself physically because I'm hurt....the urge to do something to hurt him so he understands how badly I'm hurt. No matter how many times your say you love me, you actions didn't show that.

How can I possibly believe any when you did what you did for months?

And Launa.. God I fucking hate her.

I'm not supposed to have hate in my heart but I do. I hate her so damn much. I hate how she'd come to me when I was regressed and take care of me knowing what she was doing.

Its always you regret it. But you never do better.

Why do I have to try hard enough for everyone? Why do I have to put in all the fuckin effort?

I feel so damn unloved. I struggle to believe when someone says they do because how? Why?

And now I'm here again...crying lmao.