i know i love you

chapter 2

Joshua's POV

Today since i had plenty of time before school had begun, i decided to take the scenic route and allow my mind to relax and get ready for another boring school day. We had returned back to school yesterday and I was already wishing that it was the holidays again. I had ended up coming to school earlier than I had intended and so the only thing I was thinking of was trying to get some more minutes of sleep before school stared. I had not gotten any sleep last night, the same scene flashing before my eyes whenever I catch myself drifting off. I'm not sure what the dreams means whether it is going to happen or already has happened. It just repeats on and on never stopping. Not to mention the fact that my parents have been arguing a lot, this never used to happen before when we were in America but, since we have moved to Seoul they have been arguing more. I often hear my name being mentioned in a few of their arguments, making me think if i had done anything wrong that day. No matter how hard I try eavesdrop on their conversation I always end up feeling guilty resulting in me just walking away and hoping that they didn't see me trying to listen in to their argument

Anyways once i arrived i made my way to my seat and normally my table would be empty but today i saw a box of my favourite chocolates, a packed lunch with some delicious looking food inside and a small red letter. huh who put that there? is this meant to be for me? i knew the stuff weren't for me because no one in this school likes me and they all think of me as a big bad bully they are all scared to come near me thinking that i might beat them up just because it happened once.
Basically one day there was this kid and he kept annoying me and he wouldn't shut up and so i got angry and broke his arm and another time i accidentally broke some ones jaw i didnt know that they were that weak. oh i remember one time there were a bunch of people and they were bullying this new kid and one of them decided to spill milk on the kids head and i felt sorry for the kid as he had done nothing so i beat up all those kids that were being mean to him, they all were younger than me so it made it easier for me to beat them up but, one of the kids snuck up behind me and was about to hit me with a chair i was about to defend myself when the kid dropped down onto the floor and passed out i looked at the person who saved me and it was the emo kid wonwoo he thanked me for helping his friend who i found out was called Chan and from then on we became friends. Now looking back i realised i probably have beaten up more than one kid, oh well its not my fault im only protecting myself but i'm also not going to just sit around whilst they bully innocent kids for dumb reasons.

I was kinda curious to see who all this stuff was for and why they had decided to put it on my desk instead of all the other desks in the classroom. I was surprised to see that it was actually for me. Not sure if this was real or just a prank, i just stared at it blankly before shrugging. I don't really have anything to do now and there aren't any kids in the class so might as well check it out. Its probably a prank, but I was still kinda curious and wanted to see what it said, there was a cute little smiley face on the seal which made me smile a bit before coughing a little, embarrassed for smiling at such a dumb, small cute thing returning to my normal poker face, i opened it and there was a letter inside of it. It was also addressed to me, admiring the decorating of the letter I read what it said

Ok who is Angel? what kinda name is that? and wow i guess this is definitely for me, unless there is another Joshua Hong. But, how did they know all these things without me telling anyone about them? are they some type of stalker or do I have a secret admirer.

I sighed heavily it's too early for this my brain is still half asleep, scoffing and trying not to  think about this "surprise" while the emotions on my face betrayed me. I had this huge grin on my face, and I buried my head into my folded arms. Finally there is someone in this school that actually knows that I am a human too and not just this crazy monster who beats kids up. Even if this is some type of sick joke at least I got free food