are you lonely? (jakehoon.) ✓

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park sunghoon never showed up.

jake felt so stupid, for waiting the whole day, thinking he would appear in the classroom at a given moment and it would all be okay. now, walking home, he wished he didn't come in today.

but at the same time, he was so glad he met jay, he slightly numbed the empty feeling of sunghoon being absent, and made him laugh - he smiled and helped him in class, when he didn't understand (most of the time) and talked a lot, distracting him from the silly little thoughts that itched his mind and swirled around endlessly, never giving him a break.

jay talked a lot, he liked that.

jay made him happy, he also liked that.

sunghoon doesn't talk a lot, he's quieter, listens to everything jake has to say and pouts cutely. but, the few words he does occasionally say, means so so much more.

sunghoon made him the happiest and he loved that.

when jake was with sunghoon, it was like having a bestfriend but entirely everything more, like they were the only two people that existed in an empty world, like having each other was more than enough. and it was — to jake, it really was.

to sunghoon though... he didn't know what the other thought, reading his expressions were difficult and he wouldn't talk about himself particularly, still, jake wanted to try to understand.

what was he to sunghoon ?

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the next few days were like a repeat of the previous day, a timeless loop. sunghoon had basically disappeared with no trace, jay stayed by his side and they laughed and smiled as well, he was truly enjoying himself.

getting a taste of being with sunghoon was a terrible mistake, even if jake was content with jay, he couldn't deny the stinging and aching pain that lingered since his departure with sunghoon. he ignored the thoughts and emotions that welled up in his head, only to stay up late at night, with only his dim lamp to light up his room, staring at the same spot on his bedroom ceiling, reminiscing the short moments spent together.

so many questions and no sunghoon to answer them for him... it was getting lonely.

it was a lazy thursday afternoon, in the last twenty minutes of class before they'd be freed, jake had probably dozed off for the sixteenth time in the span of half an hour, only to be shaken awake aggressively by the boy seated beside him. whispering loudly, urging him to wake up — he shot up, straightening his posture instantly, directing his full attention to the front of the classroom. jay just snickered silently, and pointed to the back of another students head with his mechanical pencil. jake slouched back into his seat, relaxed.

"who's that ?!" jay spoke quickly, waving his pencil again at boy two rows in front of them.

"who??" jake muttered, focusing on the boy with hazelnut brown hair.

the other boy turned around, stretching his arms out and unintentionally glancing in their direction, leaving jay with his jaw drooping onto his own desk.

"ohhh ho ho" and jake knew instantly, he wiggled his eyebrows, smirked and looked at jay with eager eyes.

"does mr park jongseong have a crush ??" he teased, his face morphing into a grin.

jay had nothing to say. and just gasped to himself, in shock. clearing his throat, he sternly said "no" with a serious expression although, his eyes grew wide and said otherwise. jake continued teasing jay, as a joke. there was no way jay actually would like another boy, right?

it would just be funny.

the bell rang and students scattered towards the exit. the two boys immediately stood up and jake pushed jay towards the door, urging him to walk faster while also wanting to leave as quick as he could — suddenly halting as jay collided with another student, he let out a small "ouch" before falling onto his knees right on the ground, jake poked his head out from above jay's shoulder and let out a silent gasp.

it happened to be the hazel brown haired boy that jay mentioned before, what a total coincidence, like the beginning of something new. because recently jake has realised everything happens out of mere coincidence or luck... or would you call it fate?

what exactly is fated for him though?

jay began to apologise, reaching his hand up to help the boy up from the ground, the slight m embarrassment painted clear on his face and jake could already tell he was is trouble with the short glance jay gave.

"i am so sorry.... w- what was your name?"

"jungwon, yang jungwon.."

"sorry again jungwon...."

jay repeated, forcing a tiny awkward smile as jungwon grabbed a hold of his hand and lifted himself up with the help of jay. jake wanted to apologise as well, it was his fault really.

"hey so.. jungwon, i'm actually sor—"

he was dragged out of the classroom in an instance, a strong body pulling him along the hallway, that he couldn't even stop or even process the current situation.

" hey! wha- t..? what are you doing! "

from what he could make out, it was a boy.

tall, slim with black hair, not wearing school uniform, but a grey hoodie and... oh it all clicked.

"park sunghoon ???"

a low laugh was let out, the voice instantly sounded like sunghoon to jakes ears, confirming the identity of the boy pulling jake out of school.

"took you long enough !"

as they reached the school gates, the exit. sunghoon came to a stop and turned around, hands still unknowingly intertwined, fitting perfectly like the pieces of a jigsaw puzzle. they both ended up laughing, almost in tears, jake couldn't even be mad at sunghoon for disappearing like nothing, he could only smile and feel excited that he was here, now, with him.

and his heavy heart, now feeling so light it might fly away if it weren't for the body that encased it, and the wide smile that he couldn't help but put on — displaying nothing more but the purest form of existing together alongside all the joyful emotions you could possible think of.

"did you miss me ? i missed you."

"you idiot, i hate you."

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a/n
hope you enjoyed ! ♡
seriously wish i could type and think faster when writing these lol

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