Shifting

Chapter 22

Izuku POV

I stand there for a minute after I hand Bakugou his food and water. I'm contemplating wether or not to tell him something that's been on my mind for awhile now. I shake my head as I decide against it. I walk away down the hallway, up the stairs, and through the door. I walk past the crew and go to Ei and I's room. I sit down on the bed and look at the floor.

I sit there for a few more minutes before I hear the door open again. Ei comes in and sits down on the bed next to me and collapses into my lap. I start running my hands through his hair absentmindedly. We sit there in silence just processing the day we've had. Finally Ei speaks up.

"Hey, how are you handling this. I know this is bringing up really bad memories for both of us. I want to check on you." He said while shifting so he could lay on his back and look at me. I look down at him.

"Honestly, I don't know. Yes, it is bringing up really bad memories and when we were talking to him I was about to go into a panic attack, but, I don't know." I said while looking at him. He sat up and kissed me and we shifted so we were both laying on the bed and my head was on his chest.

"Zuzu, I know how you feel. I didn't have as bad of an experience with him as you did but I have and idea. I saw through your annoyed facade today. I wanted to hold your hand but I didn't know if I could. I probably should've in hindsight. I'm sorry." I looked up at him.

"It's ok. I get it. I don't know how I would've reacted if you'd grabbed my hand. I don't know if it would've helped me or made me crumble and go into a panic attack." I said and took a shakily breath. Almost as if I was about to cry. Ei heard it.

"Hey, hey. Zuzu, look at me." He said while making us sit up. I started to tear up. My whole facade crumbled in this very instant. I started shaking and hyperventilating. All of my bad memories started to flood back to me.

"Hey hey hey! Izuku! Can you breathe with me? Can you focus on my breathing? You're safe you not there  anymore." He put my hand on his chest and started taking long deep breathes for me to copy. I started to try to copy him. I still go some shallow breathes but I am trying.

"Good. Your doing really good Zuzu. That's it kept taking those deep breathes. You're ok. You're ok." He said while pulling me to his chest. I started to calm down while listening to his heartbeat.

After I calmed down, we went into the kitchen to have dinner with the crew. We walk in and everyone stops talking to look at us. They all stand up and give us a big group hug. Again. They all know I need it. We hug for a few more minutes before we all sit down to eat.

"Are you ok Izuku? We all know this is hard on you. Do you want to talk about it?"

"Orrrrrrr do you need us to go down there and chew him out?" Why do they want to chew him out so bad?!

"Haha... no I don't really want to talk about it. And maybe you can do it tomorrow. MAYBE!" I said to them. They all look a little disappointed but nodded anyway. They are happy that they might get to say all the things they've wanted to since I told them what happened in my childhood. While we are talking Ei stands up.

"Hey, I'm gonna go get his water cup to re-fill it and bring him a sketchbook." Ei said. I nodded but one of my crew members spoke up.

"Why are you giving him a sketchbook?"

"Because, we aren't that mean. No matter what he did to us we can still be a little bit nice." Ei replied. They nodded again. Ei got up and left. After he came back and sat down. He looked lost in thought so I nudged him on the shoulder.

"Hey, what's wrong? Did he say or do something to you?" I asked him.

"Yes and No. He said thank you when I handed that stuff to him. What the hell? When has he ever been nice? I don't get it." He shook head head trying to get rid of the thoughts.

"I don't know. He was like that with me too." I answered him. We all sat there thinking. This was weird I don't get it. After dinner we all head to bed.

Ei and I are in bed cuddling. Both of us are still processing everything that happened today. I don't know how I'm going to deal with in for the foreseeable future. Ei talked and broke me out of my thoughts.

"I know we made that deal a while ago about if we see him again and he pursues us we give him a chance, but you made that deal thinking we would never see him again. Didn't you?" I looked up at him.

"Yeah... I did. But we made a deal. If he pursues us, we'll give him a chance. If he doesn't we can go our separate ways. If we do end up rejecting him, we can still go our separate ways. Ok?" I said to him.

"....ok. That sounds ok I guess...let's get some sleep. We've both had a stressful and not fun day and we'll have to do it tomorrow too. Ok? I love you. Always and forever." He kissed me after he finished talking.

"Y-yeah. That's sounds ok. I love you too. Always and forever." I kissed him this time and then we closed our eyes and fell asleep.

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