TRIGGER WARNING: SELF HARM AND SUICIDE TALK
Chris •POV•
Another Dead day.
I've been in this Same Little Apartment for 6 months.
Lonely and Tired, Sad.
I had just broken up with my girlfriend.
And I already had Problems with self harm.
Ever since she's left it's gotten Worse.
The Scars are visible, Purple and Red all over.
I wasn't trying to Really end my life.
I was only Trying to Let all these feelings go.
All this Guilt and Pain i had trapped inside of me left With the Scrape of the blade.
The feelings left temporarily Through the Cuts.
Like trapped souls in bottles, Once you let them go, They're free forever.
Not to mention, I was Agoraphobic and Had Panic disorder to the point where i couldn't even Stand Looking up at trees, Or looking down at the Ground.
It always Moved when I looked Down at it and the trees.
They just Seemed so Tall.
And when i got into the Car, I had to Run back inside my Apartment because It was So scary.
And My Memory is so Horrible i can't even remember if i've ate Earlier.
So i say i did and then i don't eat.
It takes a lot for me to remember what i did yesterday.
There's so much brain Fog since she's Left me.
Is any of this even real?
It doesn't feel like it.
I just wanna feel something again.
As i lay on my bed i Glance over to the Blade that Had a place as a Stopgap.
The Stainless Steel Still managed to Print my Blood stains.
I really needed to find a New Coping mechanism.
I couldn't keep doing this.
One day i'd do it too deep and end up Really Seeing the face of God.
That's not what i wanted.
I only wanted to feel, Ok again.
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The Cure
Fanfiction⚠️TRIGGER WARNING: SELF HARM⚠️ i also apologize for any Typos or Mis-spelled Words, I'm only Human ☹️. Chris Cornell self harms. His girlfriend Had just broken up with him after Just months together. Chris had really thought she was the one but T...
