The Cure

Smitten

After, Many Mental Breakdowns.
A lot of thinking.
A lot of Crying.
A lot of Blood.
A lot of everything.
I found Myself laying on my Bed In silence.
I missed Eddie.
I hated the way He left me.
Did i have feelings for him?
Of course i fucking did.
I was Totally in love with Him and nothing can tell me different now.
It was 100% love at First sight.
He was so Amazing.
And He just left me.
I can't believe this.
The One solution is Gone.
Now i was Hopeless Again.
Why was everything Moving so fast?
Like life wasn't Present.
Like life wasn't real.
Like i wasn't real.
Was i real?
It sure as hell didn't feel like it.
I was scared i'd never see his Face again.
the Phone rang, Making me jump out of my Trance.
I had no energy To Answer it Though.
I didn't care who it was.
I Layed on my Bed and let it go to Voicemail.
I Couldn't Even Move my Hands it felt like.
and as i was Noticing the weak parts of my body, i heard a voice.

"Chris? Chris are you there? Listen...I'm Coming Back. Be ready. It's gonna Be a long road to get rid of me now. Be prepared for me to do a lot of explaining and Crying. I-I'll be there in 10."

It was Eddie.
Hearing his Voice once more.
Weakened me.
And another flow of tears.
I couldn't Contain myself.
I didn't know how to feel.
I was so Lost and Unhappy right now.
Yes, We just met.
Everything's moving VERY fast.
But Eddie Is something i never thought  i'd have.
He's a Gem, a Diamond.
He's My world.
And i Couldn't Express that More.
He's everything to me already.
I couldn't straighten myself out.
I was so Lost.
The lack of self control i fear is never ending.
I've felt this way before, So Hopeless.
I decided to Lift myself up and sit up.
The blood Trickling from my Cold Wrist.
However it isn't as bad as the other ones.
I don't know how.
I was seriously hurt.
Instead of feeling nothing, I felt everything.
There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface.
Controlling.
Reacting.
I felt nauseous.
That was when i Heard the door slam open.
I look over to see Eddie was here.
More tears fell from my Eyes.

"Chris. Stop Crying. I'm here now. Come on Get Up. You can do it."
He Lifts me up as he Sits infront of me.

"Chris...I'm sorry. I'm sorry i left earlier. But I Couldn't Bare the Fact That I....Well I'm In L-"

"In Love with Me? Yea. Yea i know that Now. And i guess i have some explaining to do too. Because Eddie Vedder. Ever since i saw you for the first time i was In Love. I couldn't help but Fucking Think about you Everyday i went home. I Didn't want hurt myself anymore. I wanted to be with you. God damn it Eddie, You Have me Head over Heals For your stupid ass. I love you so much but i also hate you for how much i love you Damn it. I'm In Love with you Eddie and i can't...I Can't Fucking Hide it anymore. Does that explain Something to you?"
I had finally let out all the Anger.
I was Relieved in the slightest bit.
but now he has to explain.

"I didn't want to Leave. All I ever Wanted was someone like you. Of course i'm in love with you How can i not be? We have the same interests. The same fucked up Abusive Childhood The Same Everything Chris. And i can't get over how strong our connection is. Your amazing and i Can't seem to get away from you. and when i sleep with you it's a Total different story. You make me feel so safe. And When i lay next to you God i can't Explain how soft your skin is. And How You Softly Hum in your sleep.
How your hair drapes over your Face. And the way You Gently rub whatever part of my Body to Slowly and softly wake me up. God and the way you sing. I cant get over how fucking Amazing you are. your Just my Type and i can't Express that enough. And god are you Sexy. Especially with your Shirt off like you were this Morning. Your prettier than most girls i see Walking around here. I will be completely Honest."
Every word he spit out made me so Happy.
He made me feel so Complete.
I Couldn't stop Looking at his Face.
And i gazed at his lips here and There.

"God i love you Already Eddie Vedder."

"I Love you Just as much Chris Cornell."
And With that i brought him In for a Hug.
Soon I pushed him back and Layed down on him As we both Laughed.
I was so happy with him.
I Leaned back up to look at him in his eyes, And i couldn't help but smile.
We both admired each other for a Fee Seconds as i Realized he was Gazing at my Lips.
And i knew exactly what he wanted.
Then, Everything went serious.
I took absolutely No hesitation And Immediately Layed my Lips Onto his.
I Straddled Him as his Hands wandered all over my Body.
i knew he enjoyed every second of this.
And So Did I.