Once we make it back to the hype house, I get out of the car and go straight upstairs to my room.
I felt sick. Physically sick.
I go over to my set up and slump into my chair, throwing my headset on then getting everything ready for a stream.
This is the only thing that could take my mind off of whatever the fuck all of that was.
I post to my Instagram story saying that I'm streaming then I toss my phone onto the desk and start.
The comments start flooding in almost immediately after I begin.
"How're you guys?" I ask as I fix the music and put on my most depressing playlist possible.
I read a few comments replying to me, some with full paragraphs of their days, "I'm great," I sarcastically reply without it seeming too obvious that I was being actually being sarcastic.
"No, this is a good song. I like the sad shit," I reply to another comment.
I start the game and focus on taking out any frustration onto the things in the game.
A lot of people have noticed that I'm being a bit more...aggressive today and were questioning me which only ended up bugging me even more.
"Guys, literally— stop commenting that shit," I laugh and lean back, "I'm doing fine, thanks for the concern, but I'm just playing a game,"
I continue playing for a bit until I see a notification pop up on my phone.
I stop the game and click on the notification which takes me to Instagram.
Maddy posted a photo.
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I turn my phone off and go back to my game, bouncing my foot as Maddy sits at the front of my mind which leads me to thinking about the video.