The Volition

Eleven

It happened so slow and so fast all at once and not at all. I remember bits and pieces floating in my head just barely out of my reach. Kyle screamed for help as he fell to his knees, his hands on either side of my head. I remember focusing on his mouth and how spit came flying out as he screamed, he screamed at me, he screamed at Eli, he screamed at everyone and no one in particular.

I remember hearing Kuma barking wildly and whining as she stomped her feet in place. She kept looking at me and barking so loudly. I remember thinking how badly I just wanted her to stop.

I remember the ringing in my ears. It rang so loudly everything else seemed so far away. The ringing just echoed in my head which felt like someone was slamming it against the floor. It was such a trial for me to keep my eyes open but every time I closed them Kuma would start barking like crazy and they would shoot open, my eyes searching wildly for something to focus on.

And then there was Eli. So calm, so gentle, so focused. He was on the phone calling 911 telling the address to my home. He grabbed a pillow off the couch and carefully lifted my head placing the pillow underneath whispering soothing words to me.

I tried to focus on Eli but Kyle took up most of my vision. His face had gone white and he looked so scared. He just kept calling my name over and over again, ordering me to stay with him. My eye lids just felt so heavy though and it hurt to keep them open. I tried to say that my mouth was so dry. I kept licking my lips rolling my head back and forth trying to open my eyes and speak. My body felt heavy as it sank into the floor. My arms couldn't move and I tried to wiggle my toes but nothing would move. I felt paralyzed.

There were lights. Bright flashing lights the blinded me. My eyes burned and I squeezed them tightly popping them open every now and again. The sirens blared and Kyle begged me to hold on just a little longer. I wanted to cry but nothing came. I wanted to scream but I just couldn't. My voice was trapped. I was stuck in my head and I didn't think I could ever escape. I had been caged and betrayed by my own body.

I could feel how easy it would be to close my eyes and to stop fighting. I wanted to stop fighting so badly. I felt so drained and tired. The deceitfulness of the dark enticed me. It dug its claws into my flesh pulling me closer and closer. The desire to stay dulled. I could feel Kyle' tears on my cheeks. He seemed so torn. I wanted to fight for him but nothing seemed worth holding on so hard anymore.

Kuma licked my face barking wildly. In my head I smiled at her. She whined barking again nudging me with her cold nose. I coughed gasping harshly. I wanted to hold her but I couldn't get to her, I couldn't reach her.

The door banged against the wall and the paramedics came dropping to the ground so fast. Kyle jumped up and sprang back for them to get to me. Eli took Kuma into another room and I could hear her barking and fighting him. The EMT placed his fingers around my neck. I tried to suck in breath but my lungs felt tight. I could breathe out but not draw breath in. There was some sort of a mask they propped against my nose but the pull for sleep dragged me into the darkness.

I remember the pain. I remember the incredible pain the shot through me racing to take over my body. My brain was on fire. My head felt like it was going to explode and once again the darkness began to push itself around the edges of my eyes taking control of my vision. For a second I wanted to just accept it but the smallest bit of me fought for no reason but to fight. The pain chased me and battled inside my head.

There were sharp pains of fire on my chest as burning hot irons were lifted off me. The EMTs were screaming at each other. Telling one another to clear off of me. There was a beeping miles away that I tried to hone in on. The buzzing though just kept getting louder and louder. It felt like there was a film on my ears blocking out the outside noise but keeping in the ringing.

I could hear Kyle though clear as day. I focused on his voice and watched him pace back and forth looking at me. We locked eyes and I tried so hard to smile at him. He just nodded his head at me and I blinked rapidly. The beeping got longer in tone as my breathing got shallower and shallower. The harder I tried the less air I was able to take in. I looked at Kyle locking eyes with him again ready to say goodbye. It took all of my effort but I lifted my pointer finger trying to wave at him. He smiled as if he knew.

My body began to pulse and I shook violently. I squeezed my eyes tightly but the light penetrated through my lids. I could see the silhouettes dancing just on the other side. I began to choke on my own aching. My bones felt like they were smashing into each other. My head was imploding in on itself. The end was coming closer and closer.

I felt like laughing. I felt like I was going mad because suddenly I just felt light and clear. It was as if the clouds had finally drifted away. I could see clearly now and all I wanted to do was laugh. My head had turned on me. My body had turned on me.

Finally the darkness blanketed me pushing me deep into the pain.

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