There are only two marks our life has, the date we are born and the day we die. And why not make every moment worthy to fulfill our greatest dreams in life rather than putting ourselves in despair of not getting up in the dust? It's only a matter o...
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I booked my flight and that's gonna be in the next three days. I need to prepare for everything I need and the courage I have to take on with me.
This is the first time I will be doing this for my whole life. I'm not expecting my life would be filled with so much thrill or excitement, but today, I can honestly say that I'm feeling it. But I'm going to do this. I'm not gonna go back to square one and then pity myself just because I cannot do a thing.
The problem is, I wasn't able to do them because I have this fear inside of me that I cannot let go of. I've been stuck in the same situation. I've been trying to pull myself out of it, but things aren't going easy on me.
The future is so uncertain for me. I'm not sure what might happen after doing this or after I got to my destination. I have no clue, but taking the risks at this point could lead to something better. But still hoping for the best result.
Three days before my flight, I started packing up some of my stuff. The funny thing here is, I picked randomly which country I can go to. I've heard that Bali was a great place to have fun, so I took the opportunity since, for me, the flight ticket is cheaper, and could afford it instantaneously.
In three days, I don't know what awaits me there. I'm not even sure if I could fulfill all the things I have listed down a few years ago. Maybe this is the kind of fear that I wanted to relieve from myself. When the time I have left the country, I hope I'll be able to forget all these kinds of fear inside of me.
I'm not even sure if I should tell them about this or not. But if I'm going to do that, they might stop me from doing it so I guess I just have to do this on my own.
Days go by so quickly. My bags are packed and got the courage to go to the airport alone. I have anxiety when it comes to things that I don't have any idea on what to do. Being alone in this journey makes me feel so anxious, but I'm trying. I tried so hard to be on my own and put myself out there and now that I've got the chance to do it.
I gotta live the experience.
When my flight has announced, I get up on my seat and follow the other passengers heading to the boarding gate. There are a lot of people. These are all strangers and I'm not sure that if I got to land in Indonesia, what would I be doing next?
Will I be able to complete my bucket list or in the end will I fail?
