A stranger's journal.

Death.

Have you ever lost a loved one?

And have you ever blamed yourself for it?

You should blame yourself for it. I agree. Its all your fault.

When someone dies, I believe everyone around them is connected to their death one way or another.

Lets say you got news that your friend died this morning. They died in a car crash the previous night. The night you had the biggest fight of your life with them. So you left on bad terms.

Lets assume your friend got out of your house in anger and drove away in the middle of the night and died. You would obviously blame yourself.

But what if, before the fight, your friend found their partner cheating  and they took their anger on you. So because of their partner, they fought with you and died in the car crash.

Another probability is that your friend was murdered. 

It was the middle of the night, there is always someone driving while drunk. They hit your friend and left. It was a hit and run. So your friend also might have not died because of you but because of the driver.

The drunk driver also has a story to tell.

The driver was drunk because the person they loved the most betrayed them. Because of this they got drunk at night to 'drink away the pain' because of their current situation.

The driver's beloved did not actually betrayed them but had to make it like that so they could find someone. Maybe the beloved was a detective and is trying to find a criminal but had to lie the drunk driver.

The cycle goes on and on and on. Your friend died because of so many people. If the partner didn't cheat they wouldn't have fought with you and wouldn't have  drove away in the middle of the night. If the detective didn't lie to the driver he wouldn't have drink so much ending up hitting your friend. The detective didn't have to lie if the criminal never committed a crime.....

You might have been the reason for someone's death. Actually, you are one of the reasons that someone died.

In your lifetime, maybe you were rude to someone, or you chose someone over someone else. Maybe you lied or hidden a truth. Your little actions or 'white lies' may have been the reason to someone's demise.

However,

When death calls someone, they will answer whether they want to or not.

Maybe your friends death was already in plan. They were to die on a certain date in a certain time at a certain place. 

Even if you were busy that night you were supposed to fight with your friend, they would have still died. Something else would have happened in your place to cause her to drive in the middle of the night so she could die.

With death there is always a backup for the backup plan. If your not there to cause their death, someone else is your backup and if their not there, someone else is their back up and so on.

No one can escape death.

When your death plan is in motion, you can never outrun it. If you lock yourself up in your home, a fire will start suddenly or you suffer from a sudden stroke.

My point is, when death is knocking on your door, you have no choice but to answer.