It's 1:07am
I am once again up in the early darkness drowning in the thought of you while fearing the thought of love
As I stare at the clock and watch the time fly past I eagerly try to ignore my feelings
But I can't
So I'm laying here
Watching the clock now hit 1:22am
I think to myself "What if all along I've mistaken the type of love I have for you"
"What if it was never friendly but rather romantic"
"What if all those jokes I use to say about falling for you, became true"
And that's when I felt my stomach start to twist into knots of fear and my head began to spin
I started to dwell at the thought of loving you
And I'll keep doing it for many nights to come
I'll continue on with thinking "what if I've fallen in love"
1/6/22
