What is love? [PAUSED]

Chapter 3

Did he just say What I think he just said? I stood up and backed up a bit.

" Excuse me?" I asked furrowing my eyebrows.

" I said I want to fuck you. I want you in my bed " He said.

" M-Mr.Simmons, I thought that most business men didn't like to mix business with pleasure?" I said raising my eyebrow.

" Yea most don't, even I don't...but I want to with you " He says standing up and walking towards me.

" That's besides the point, I mean you are my boss well my boss's boss but you're still my boss. I-I don't know if I can have a relationship with my boss. What if we have a big fight and then work will never be the same a-and what if-

" Enough with the what ifs, I could careless about the what ifs, I don't want the what ifs " He says then he grabs my face and kisses. He is kissing me, HE IS KISSING ME!!! I don't know what to do, do I kiss him back? Or do I just let him take control? God he is such a good kisser. His lips are mad soft and so juicy. The last guy I let take control used and abused me. I don't know if I can let that happen. I don't kno-

" It would be nice if you kissed me back " He mumbled pulling away a bit.

" I d-don't, I don't know if I-if I can " I say looking him in the eye.

" What do you mean you don't know if you can? You don't know how to kiss?" He asks furrowing his eyebrows.

" Of course I do, I just-I just-

" You just what? " He asks.

" I-I have to get back to work " I say then I quickly run out the room. I head towards the elevator and press the down button.

" Come on, come on " I mumble pressing the down button. After like 5 minutes the elevator finally came, I sighed in relieve then got in and pressed the fifteenth floor. Once the elevator stopped I got out and went straight to my office. I found the chair repaired and I kicked it to make sure they didn't break it apart again. I sat down and put my head in my hand. Wat the Hell just happened?

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I walked into my apartment to find it empty. Great he isn't here. I sighed in frustration and plopped down on the couch. I grabbed the remote and turned it on to Vh1 which happens to be showing Love & Hip Hop Atlanta. I put my leg on the small table and rested my head on the pillow. 20 minutes into the show my phone rang, I grabbed my purse and searched through it til I found my phone. I pulled it out and answered it.

" Hello " I say.

" Toyin, it's Maya Mr.Simmons's assistant. He wants to make a lunch appointment with you tomorrow, one o'clock at Frankie's " Mr.Simmons snotty, bitchy, hoeing ass assistant said.

" I don't know if I will be able-

" He said I should tell you that he isn't asking you to come, he is demanding you come " She says with a whole lot of attitude.

" Excuse me? He is demanding that I come? " I ask. Who the fuck does he think he is? If I don't want to come then I don't have to, he ain't my dad...demanding to come. Hell nah.

" Yes, demanding. Do you not understand English?" She says.

" Listen I don't know who he thinks he is, but tell him I said I don't have to come to lunch with him if I don't feel like it " I say then I hang up. Like wat the Hell? How she get my number anyway? Ugh this day is just so ughhhh. I drop my phone on the couch then head to my room. I change into smiley face pj shorts and tank top. I then go to the bathroom and clean off the makeup. I turn off the light and walk out the room. I go into the kitchen. I grab a tasty cake, and Arizona Ice Tea then I walk back into the living room. An hour later in comes Rickey and his asswipe of a boyfriend Sebastian. God I fucking hate him. He is the devil in disguise, so evil and cruel and abusive. Probably wondering y I hate him so much. Well a year ago he raped him and he still does, everytime he has an opportunity he takes it and hurts every damn time. I haven't told Rickey about it and I don't plan on it. He loves Sebastian and he thinks he is gay like full on gay, cuz that's wat he told him and he believe it. But nope he is not, he is bisexual and takes advantage of me whenever Rickey is gone. I hate it, I hate him, I just hate everything.

" Hey babes " Rickey says coming over to kiss my cheek.

" Hey handsome, you look mighty fine tonight. Where'd you go?" I ask.

" Sebastian took me out to eat " He says smiling over at Sebastian.

" How sweet " I say fake smiling.

" Babe sit down " Rickey says.

" Aight, " He says then he takes a sit by me.

" I'm going to go freshen up, then you can tell me all about your day " He says winking then walks away.

" How've you been beautiful " Sebastian says rubbing me exposed thigh.

" Stop, don't touch me " I say slapping his hand away.

" Imma do wat I wanna do " He says then he grabs my head and kisses me.

" Stop it " I say trying to push him off. He grabs my hands and holds them above my head.

" Don't fight it " He says pulling away from lips and going to my neck.

" Just please stop " I say trying to get out of my grasp. He instead squeezes my waist really hard, making me yelp.

" You good T!!?" Rickey yells from the other room.

" I-I fine " I yell back.

" Shh, it's gonna be real quick. Rickey is gonna be in the shower for at least 20 minutes, He is gonna take like 10 minutes to get changed. So 30 minutes, that's all I need baby girl " Sebastian says then he lays me down.

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30 minutes later Sebastian's buckling up his pants and I'm pulling up my shorts and wiping my tears.

" I don't know y but I'm a bit horny. Wanna fix that for me babe?" Rickey asks biting his lip and looking at Sebastian.

" I would love to, but my sister just called and she needs me " He says rubbing his neck.

" Oh " Rickey says frowning.

" Sorry babe " He says then he kisses Rickey's cheek, winks at me then leaves

" When I need him the most, he can't be here " Rick says looking me.

" Wats wrong?" He asks sitting down by me.

" Nothing nothing " I say wiping my tears.

" Nothing? Bitch your crying and your telling me that nothings wrong " Rick says pulling me close.

" Uh, um...i just I just .... My dog died " I lied.

" You have a dog?" He asks.

" Had, but now he is dead " I say bawling.

" Oh sweetheart, I'm so sorry " He says rubbing my back. Oh God, I really wanted to tell him....i just can't, he loves him and he is happy, I-I really don't want to ruin that for him. Does that make me a bad person?