His Biggest Fan

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He gets up and sits next to me surprising me yet again.  He grabs my hand and gazes into my eyes, “you don’t have to be embarrassed with me Eliana.  I wanted you to know that if you would have me I would marry you and take your baby as my own.  I would do that because I haven’t stopped loving you.”  He admits with pride in his eyes.

I take my hand away from his slowly, “I’m sorry Robert but I am not in love with you.  I don’t need you to rescue me because I don’t need any rescuing.  I can raise my baby by myself.  I don’t want to hurt you but I can’t accept.”  I say.

He looks disappointed and hurt, I feel pained to see him like this.  He doesn’t say anything for a moment than he says smiling, “I knew you would turn me down.  I know you still love Ian.  But please don’t push me out of your life.  I want to be there as a friend.  Give me a chance to be there for you Eliana that is all I ask.”  He says with a trace of a smile.

He looks like his being honest.  I don’t think there’s any harm in accepting his friendship.  He was my friend at first before we dated I thought.

“Okay, I accept your friendship but only your friendship nothing more.”  I say raising an eyebrow.

“Deal,” he shakes my hand and smiles triumphantly.

I nod.

Two months passes by and Robert has been a great friend.  I guess he’s been my best friend lately.  He takes me to lamaze classes and brings me all sorts of health foods for me to eat at home.  He has read all the first time mommy books.  He even bought me more books for me to read.  He has really proven his friendship to me.  I haven’t gone alone to any of my doctor’s appointments because he is always there to take me.  The Doctor thought he was the father of my baby.  I quickly corrected her on that.

I am three months and two weeks pregnant.  I am hardly showing anything, it’s more of a small bump.  I eat a lot but mostly healthy food that Robert either buys or cooks for me.  The Doctor says I am healthy and my baby is healthy too.  I can learn the baby’s sex in a month.

I am at home watching a movie with Robert on the couch.  He rented “Pride and Prejudice” my favorite movie.  The movie is about to finish and I am crying for the millionth time at the end of the movie where Darcy and Elizabeth are married and happy.

Robert has fallen asleep next to me and I don’t have the nerve to wake him.  I turn off the television and bring a blanket for Robert.  I cover him with the blanket and head over to my room and climb into bed.

The next day I go and visit my sister.  Robert left very early in the morning.  He apologized to me a hundred times for falling asleep and staying the night in my couch.

I yawn and lie down at my sister’s couch to rest.

“Why are you so sleepy?”  She asks and sits on the couch holding my feet on top of her legs.

“Robert and I stayed up late to watch a movie.”  I say.

She raises an eyebrow, “are you guys an item again?”  She asks smirking.

“No, he’s just my friend.  I told you how we became friends and he’s been helping me and stuff.”  I explain.

“You two have been hanging out a lot together lately.  I just thought that maybe now you were back together with him.”  She says while rubbing my feet.

“Nope I don’t see him that way.  I care for him as a friend that’s all.”  I murmur.

“I don’t think he sees you as a friend sis.  I think he still loves you.  Maybe is not such a good idea to lead him on.  You shouldn’t spend so much time with him if he doesn’t stand a chance to win you back.”  She says bluntly.

I guess she has a point.  I don’t mean to lead him on, I care for him but I can’t love him the way he deserves to be loved.  I still love Ian with all my heart.  Ian hasn’t left my mind for a second.  He is constantly there lurking in every corner of my thoughts.  I love him and I will never love another.

“What are you thinking about sis?”  She asks.  I know she knows I’m thinking of Ian but I try to play it off.

“Just how you are right about Robert, I haven’t been fair with him.  I should take some time away from him.  I don’t want to give him false hopes.”  I murmur.

“Why don’t you give him a chance sis?  He clearly loves you and I know he would make a great father to your baby.”  She says half smiling.

I stare at her, “I don’t want a father for my baby.  I told you I will never get married or be with anyone.  Those days are long gone from my mind.”  I say closing my eyes.

“Okay sis, I know you still love Ian.  I just want to see you happy.”  She says in a low voice.

“I am happy.  My baby makes me completely happy I don’t need anything else.”  I say confidently.

That night I decide to have a talk with Robert.  We are sitting on the dining table eating dinner.

“Robert we need to talk.”  I say nervously.

He meets my eyes, “What’s wrong?”  He asks worried.

“It’s nothing to worry about.  I just feel like we’ve been spending a lot of time together and it’s not fair on you.  You are young and you need to go out and meet new people.  Maybe get a girlfriend and go out and have some fun.”  I say smiling.

He grabs my hand and doesn’t move away from my eyes, “I don’t want anyone, I’m happy here with you.”  He says smiling.

I take my hand away from his, “that’s the thing Robert I don’t want you to get the wrong idea.”  I say as I play with my food in my plate.

“Don’t worry about me Eliana.  I told you from the beginning I don’t expect anything from you only friendship.  I am not going to deny that I still love you but I respect your wishes.  Please don’t push me away.”  He says looking sad and I’m the one making him feel this way.

I grab his hand and smile, “I won’t.”  I finally say.  He smiles and kisses my hand softly.

TO BE CONTINUED………………………