His Biggest Fan

CHAPTER 7

It's the day of my appointment and today I finally will find out what I'm having.  I really want to know because I want to be ready with baby clothes and the nursery.  I want to know what color to buy.  My sister and Robert come with me to my Doctor's appointment.

Doctor Thomas is doing my sonogram right now and I am really excited.  I am five months along and on my last appointment we couldn't tell because the baby wouldn't let us see.  Hopefully he or she is more cooperative this time.

"Are you ready to find out the sex of your baby Eliana?"  She asks taking pictures and measuring my baby on the screen.

"Can you tell this time?"  I ask smiling widely.  Robert and my sister are next to me and they look just as excited to know.

"Yes I can."  She says reassuring.

"Go ahead Doctor I am ready."  I take a deep breath.

"It's a boy, congratulations to you all."  She says looking at all of us.

I start to cry out of happiness, my sister joins me and Robert can't stop smiling.

"I knew you were having a boy."  Robert says as he holds my hand.

My sister hugs me, "now we know what color to buy.

I nod and Ian's face pops into my head.  I can't believe he is not here to share with me this happy moment.  I miss him more than ever.  We could have been a happy family.  My mom wants me to call him and tell him he is going to be a father.  That I'm having his baby, she says I'm not being fair on the baby or him.  That he has every right to know and be a part of the baby's life.  But I don't think I'm ready to tell him that's if I do decide to tell him.  I'm just afraid he might want to take my baby away from me.  Or maybe he rejects him and I am going to be devastated for my baby.  Theirs a million reasons why I don't want him to know.  But my mom is right, what if I'm not doing the best for my baby.  After all he needs his father in his life.

My family and Robert decide to decorate one of my guest rooms into a nursery for the baby.  On a Sunday afternoon they are all here at my house painting the room blue.  Robert and my sister helped me pick out the crib and all the decorations for the room.  Robert insisted on building the crib by himself.  I was just there for moral support.  He didn't want me to help him.

It was late and everyone had left, it was just Robert and me.  We were in the baby's room and he was showing me the baby's first sonogram.  He made a special wooden frame for it and he hung it on the wall.  It was really cute I loved it.  He put a lot of thought into it.

We both stand beside the crib, "Eliana if only you would accept me and make me the happiest man in the world."  He murmurs and holds my hand looking into my eyes.

I swallow hard and look away. I head over to the rocking chair and sit down.

"This is really nice.  I can cradle him to sleep here."  I say not looking up.

He kneels in front of me and stops the chair from rocking, "I am serious, I could make you and the baby happy.  He is not born yet and I love him as my own.  Take a chance with me.  Give me a chance to make you both happy."  He says waiting for me to answer.

"You have been a good friend through all of this.  I could never repay all that you've done for me and my baby.  But I can never in good cautious accept you if I don't feel the same way you feel about me.  You are my best friend Robert and I'm not going to deny that I care for you a lot.  But I love Ian it will always be Ian."  I say with tears flowing down my face.

"I know you still love him but you could learn to love me with time."  He whispers.

I shake my head, "I would never do that to you.  I care for you too much to hurt you that way.  I love him Robert.  I will never stop loving him."  I say as more tears begin to slide down my cheeks.