Him & I||A. Gallagher

10|Where's My Love?

"Does she know that we bleed the same? Don't wanna cry but I break that way..."

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Aidan's Pov:

We both got into the driveway of Madison's house, and Y/n was almost asleep from the drive and also being late. I looked at the time seeing that it was now 12:26am, happy new years to us I guess? "Y/n.." I said softly rubbing her shoulder, she looked at me trying to keep her eyes open.

Looking in front of her she saw that we were what we called home for now. "Can you carry me?.." she mumbled softly.

I nodded and got out, then went over to the passenger side and opened the door. She took her seatbelt off and I put one arm under her legs and the other on her back slowly picking her up out of the car. She buried her face into my chest, knowing she had gone back to sleep.

I took her inside and went to my room laying her down on my bed and covering her with the blankets.

Even though she made me happy, I needed her to be happy with someone who would treat her well and take care of her.

I wasn't enough for her, she deserved someone who didn't have mental breakdowns over little things, or anger issues. She had already gone through enough just by being here, and who knows what with her mom.

I put my hand on her forehead and kissed her cheek, "I love you so much Y/n, but you need someone who isn't fucked up.." I looked at her while she was asleep. There was so much more I wanted to say, but I just didn't know how to say it.

I stood up and looked at her one last time before leaving the room, I got my head cleared and went into the bathroom closing the door. I opened the medicine cabinet and found a razor, I took it apart taking the blades out.

While I did I cut my finger making me flinch in pain, but that was the whole point.

I ignored it and took one of the blades leaving the rest of the razor in the sink, I sat down on the floor and pulled up my sleeve. It felt stupid, doing this now and not when I was bullied or hit, it was coincidentally when I met a girl I never knew in the beginning that made me happy and loved.

Why? Why can't life just go the way you want it to, ever? I cried, while it felt like all the bad memories were coming back all at once. So I started to cut, and it wasn't a little paper cut kind.

I put my head back on the wall closing my eyes, trying not to make noise, I let the razor blade go and heard it fall into something wet, I leaned my head forward a little.

Everything was covered in blood, my arm, the floor, and the blade in almost a puddle of blood. My breath became shaky, my eyes heavy, I cried more and more.

But my cry was silent, I looked at the bathroom light seeing it blur in and out. It wasn't a I probably do, I did deserve this. Every part, I deserved every cut and every drop of blood I was loosing, it wouldn't matter, no one would notice I'm gone.

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Y/n's Pov:

I woke up sitting up, and noticed being in Aidan's bed. That's right, I remember asking him if he could carry me, I probably sounded stupid asking him that. I looked at the time and saw that it was 2:38am, but where was Aidan?

He was probably downstairs getting water, something felt off about it though.

I got out of bed and walked down the hallway, none of the lights were on except for the ones downstairs and the bathroom light that I noticed was on from underneath the door. I went over to the bathroom door and knocked slightly, "Hello? Is anyone in there?" I asked, but there was no response.

If there was one thing that I learned about living here for almost a month now, it was that Mason was always for some reason leaving the bathroom light on when he wasn't in there.

It was honestly annoying. I opened the door about to turn off the light until I heard a faint whisper, I looked behind the door.

Everything inside me felt like it had suddenly stopped, I went into the bathroom and got on my knees next to Aidan whos head was sloutched over to the side resting on his shoulder.

"Aidan, s-stay with me. You're gonna be ok" I went to take out my phone but I didn't have it on me, "Fuck!" I panicked and I was scared.

I checked inside the pocket of his hoodie that he was wearing and found his phone, I dialed 911 and let it ring. I put it on speaker, trying to find something more than toilet paper to stop him from bleeding so much.

"911 what's your emergency?" I heard the phone say, I quickly picked it up "I-I need an ambulance please it w-won't stop. He wont stop bleeding!" I cried into the phone, dropping it on the floor holding his arm.

"Ma'am please calm down, what's your address?" the women asked. "Y/n what are you-" I looked up slightly seeing Yelena staring at us, "Shit-" she looked at the phone and grabbed it.

"Hello? Look we need someone right now, the address is 3932 Lawrence street. It's house 1243-" I heard her say taking if off of speaker. What did I do wrong? Did I make him do this to himself?

"Here" Yelena handed me a towel, I took it and held it against the part of his arm that was bleeding, but it did nothing. It just soaked up the blood and more came out.

"I'll be back, I'm going to check outside for the paramedics-" she put her hand on my shoulder. I nodded slightly, trying to keep my shit together, but I just wanted to breakdown so badly right now.

She left the bathroom leaving it only Aidan and I, I focused on the amount of pressure being put on to his arm, and tried to not think the worst right now. "N-No.." he said so quietly I almost didn't hear him.

I looked at him seeing that his eyes were still closed, I kept one hand on his arm, and with my other I tilted his face towards me. "Aidan you're going to be ok I promise you." I said trying to keep him with me.

But he kept going in and out, a few minutes had passed and Yelena almost fell coming into the bathroom. "Help me get him up-" she looked at me, "What?" I was confused.

"Madison like always, come on!" But I shook my head, "No Yelena! Madison can stop being such a goddamn bitch and let them in! Aidan is dying!" I was on the urge of screaming.

The bathroom got more crowded and when I looked up in the doorway the paramedics had somehow gotten in the house, I guess they weren't dealing with Madison's shit.

I was almost pushed away from Aidan by one of the paramedics, everything felt like it was falling apart, all I could do was watch them take Aidan away.

When I couldn't see him anymore I looked down, my knees and hands being drenched in blood. Atleast 3 towels soaked in blood as well, "Y/n.." I heard Yelena say.

But I didn't answer her. I couldn't move, I couldn't stop staring at my hands, and I couldn't breathe. Finally I wrapped my arms around me, holding myself and letting everything go.

Finally breaking down, even with crying it didn't help. I wanted this all to be a nightmare, a sick fucking nightmare, soon I'd wake up next to Aidan, or maybe even him holding me. I had to, this couldn't be real. It just couldn't be real.