i catch myself by the back of my neck
failing to feel the sensation of shame
i stop myself saying those words that hurt
thatre a bullet to the leg the arm the headwhen there is nothing left
i thought id have my mind
but im slipping now and skipping steps
i plunge under the water and come up finewhy will i never be like you
ill never be like you never be you
of all the people why is it you
you make me cry like nothing elsei hug myself when i cry sometimes
and im never warm enough
why will i never be happy
potholes rip through me nowalonealonealonealonealonealonealone
tell me youre alone too
im alone
are you alonemy legs are black and blue and knees bloody
kneeling over the toilet bowl for hours
now my throat doesnt work sometimes
when will everything be okayi just want to curl up and die like a sick dog
i feel so helpless just like a pile of shit
im slipping down the drain
are you coming with me
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my darkest mind
Poetryoh, my darkest mind, still as you incarnadine me in vain, you behold me as i fall. deeper, my darkest mind, roiling in fury, the fever you gift me, pain that befalls me, obsidian once sharp had since dulled to reveal the rectification of what used...