i feel the urge to scream and laugh and say
why did i ever think that today would be any different
and that you would change your mind
and my eyes prickle and shine and i panic
at the sudden arrival of those things
the thought of those rivers and tides
i cant shake them off even though i love it
i adore when those feeling show themselves
like proof of whats in my body coming to light
my heart starts resounding in my head
and the pressure on my skull refines
i realise that this is going to hurt more than i thought
i look down into at the incredible dark
those lines compounding with me
i take my hair in fists and try to resist
but they drip and drip and drip
onto my cold bedsheets they stain
gray clouds of ecstasy
of such sad ecstasy
soon i compose myself and relish in the stinging
and i then stare into the twitching eyes
of someone i thought was me
but before i can stop it
those lines confound me again
YOU ARE READING
my darkest mind
Puisioh, my darkest mind, still as you incarnadine me in vain, you behold me as i fall. deeper, my darkest mind, roiling in fury, the fever you gift me, pain that befalls me, obsidian once sharp had since dulled to reveal the rectification of what used...
