I've never had a thought of entering that world. I've said to myself that I'm contented of what kind of things I'm encountering in real world. Pero kasi sabi nila, that world was fun. Most of the teens may and would go nuts for it. That world they say was amazing, and addictive.
Posts about it in my socmed feeds and accounts were tempting. In there says that they found friends and happiness, some feeling that you could only have if that someone's genuine.
But it's a worry for me, na isang introvert. How could I make friends? I have feaking social anxiety, too. I don't even do chatting with someone I don't know, or even someone I do know.
Yet, curiosity pushed me. It made me make my roleplay, or RP account.
Okay.
My account name is Neige Prise. Set my important details into private. Wala, nag-iingat lang ako. I don't know, basta. And other than that, no more other infos.
Set my picture with a korean celebrity, ganito kasi yung nasa ibang roleplayer accounts. And just let my cover photo empty. Wala rin akong in-add na friends. Yet, tried to join some roleplay world groups and observed what kind of activities are they doing.
And with that, I've realized that this is not for me.
I stayed just three hours, scrolling on my feed, filled with that hoods they say that so fun and enjoying. Pero, hindi ako sumali. Not my type of circle of friends.
Also, along with that were their aesthetic pictures they've edited with this '+' and their names, and some captions. Others were stories and whatsoever.
With that, I can say that it's not really for me.
Another couple of hours passed. And another couple of hours again, hanggang sa nag-alas otso ng gabi na lang. It just got me bored. Nadako ang tingin ko sa friend request, and saw a hundred unknown people requested. Wow, I can't even reach twenty friend requests in one day.
And for me, na bukod sa introverted creature with social anxiety, medyo tamad din akong mag-accept ng requests. Pero dahil sa boredom, I accepted some requests.
But just fifteen people, specifically. Including this Astre Oxferia. Wala, her name is just... new to my ears. Okay, and after that, naisipan kong i-delete na lang ang RP account ko. Wala, just bored and it's not compatible with me.
Minutes then I supposed to go to bed pero, nag chat yung Astre.
Astre Oxferia
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Astre
Hi!
I saw her message but I'm confused. Nalilito ako if magrereply ba ako. I didn't seen her message, and thinking if I'll delete this account for good. And yes, because I'm too good at thinking, nag-reply ako sa kanya. Great.
Neige
Hi
Astre
Taga saan ka?
Neige
I can't tell.
Astre
A okay, e gano ka nang
katagal sa RP?
Neige
Not too long
Bago pa lang ako
Ikaw?
Astre
Three months na po
Ilang taon ka na po?
Neige
Secret muna yung edad ko
Pero, you can talk casually,
no need to say 'po'
Astre
Okay po
Nice meeting you pala
Neige
Yeah, ako rin
After that talk, I just can't believe on what I have done. I just chatted on someone I don't know, but yeah. I think this person's younger than me. Wala, base lang sa way kung pa'no siya magchat. And, I guess she's a girl.
Astre
Kumain ka na po ba?
Neige
Yeah, done
You?
Astre
Tapos na rin po
I'm a girl, ikaw?
Neige
Same
Astre
Op to op?
Neige
What's that?
Astre
Original picture or photo
Neige
Kailangan ba yon?
Astre
Pwede din naman po na
wag na lang kung ayaw nyo
Neige
Oh
Astre
Magse-send na ako ha
📷
Astre sent a photo.
I just saw a beautiful girl with a long, straight hair. With her off-shoulder and smile. Is this the girl I'm chatting? She's pretty. Nahiya tuloy ako. And the heck, I don't want to show my face, pero nag send siya. It'll be offending if I don't do the same thing. Pero sabi naman niya, okay lang kung di ako mag-send. Yet it's unfair on her part.
Damn, bahala na.
Neige
Is that you?
Ang ganda mo
Astre
Hindi naman ako maganda
Neige
You are
📷
Neige sent a photo.
And I just showed my freaking pale face.
Astre
Ang ganda nyo naman pala!
Neige
No
Astre
Maganda po kayo, no
I know where will this go. If I refused, she'll said that I'm pretty, kaya pababayaan ko na lang. Just for the talk to not take too long.
Neige
Nga pala, it's already
nine, aren't you going
to sleep?
Astre
Yan nga rin pi sana ang sasabihin
ko
Matutulog na rin po ako ngayon
Good night
Neige
You should
Good night, too
Astre
Astre reacted ❤ to your message.
Hindi ko na si-neen ang message na 'yon.
Nagpunta ako sa settings and looked for deactivation and deletion of account, and attempted to delete this pero hindi ko naman nagawa. I don't know why, but I just let it that way.
Just shook my head, and go to bed.
