Hindi ko na alam kung ano na ang mga updates sa RP account ko. Ilang araw na kasi akong hindi nakakapag bukas no'n dahil marami na rin kaming mga activities na kailangang tapusin.
It's almost a week, na hindi ako nakapag-on. I got busy, both on my activities and online classes din. Medyo stress dahil may mga topic sa iba't-ibang subjects akong hindi naiintindihan.
Hindi ko na alam kung anong balita sa RP account ko. But for sure, that Rus removed already the 'in a relationship status' na si-net niya no'n. He said na three days lang 'yon, for their activity.
Nang matapos ang isa kong activity, saglit kong in-open ang RP account ko. But, I got confused. Kasi, expected kong marami nang messages si Astre sa 'kin. Hindi ako nakapagpaalam sa kanya so I bet she got worried.
Pero, nang in-open ko ang convo namin, wala siyang bagongmessages. At hindi na ako makapag-chat sa kanya. I don't know. I tapped her profile pic, but it's not accessible. Did she... just deleted her account? Or deactivated it?
May problema kaya siya? Ewan ko pero... when I asked my friends in real world, about that RP things. And they say that RP's so fun, but some of the r'pers leaves the world to focus on their studies. Or, maybe, dahil nalamang may relationship sila with guys or girls that their parents didn't know and met.
Maliban do'n, I don't have any idea.
Maybe... nalaman ng mga magulang niya na sila na nung kaibigang ka-mutual niya ng feelings sa real world? But if yes, I think they would let him court her, at haharap siya sa pamilya ni Astre diba? I don't know.
O baka naman, magfo-focus muna yon sa pag-aaral niya. Siguro.
I just sighed, and said that I'll just wait 'til Astre brings her account back again. Hindi na ako nag-abala pang tumingin sa ibang messages. Hindi ko si-neen ang gc. I just waited Astre to comeback, and it was exactly three days.
Tatlong araw akong naghintay pero gano'n pa rin. Hindi ko pa rin makausap si Astre. Dito'y nag-alala na ako sa kanya. Kaya, I decided to chat the gc.
I opened it.
Mga Batang Ligaw
Aspretty cleared her nickname.
Astre Oxferia set her nickname to Foundress
Astre ♡
Foundress Astre ♡ removed you from the group.
You can't reply to this conversation.
I can't reply? Ni-remove niya ako? Why? May nangyari kayang hindi maganda sa gc nung time na hindi ako nakapag-online?
I don't know. Mas lalo lang akong nag-alala kay Astre. So, sinikap kong i-backread yung mga messages na mababasa ko pa, before ako na-remove. But, I don't get it. Kaya, hinanap ko na lang yung mga ka-close at naka-interact naming dalawa sa gc. Nang sa ganon ay hindi ako mahirapang magsend ng personal message.
I sent pm's to this Lance Dashren, which is yakult. And Brent Kalvin Montefalco, yung brendodong. And that Drake Harold Wilt. I asked if what happened to Astre. And I said I'm so worried for her. Naghintay ako mula umaga hanggang gabi, baka sakaling mag-message sila pero wala akong natanggap na reply ni isa.
They didn't even gave a seen on my messages. Na lalong ipinagtaka ko.
I made another way, para makapag-communicate kay Astre. I tried tagging the remaining gc members and post those messages na hindi nila si-neen. But the people cannot be tagged. Hindi ko pala sila friends.
I searched astre's name but no results. Wala pa ring pinagbago sa account niya. Hindi pa rin ako makapag-message.
Baka nga talagang... dinelete na niya ang account niya for some reasons? Maybe. So, even if I felt so worried, and sad... day by day, pinagpasensyahan ko muna.
Baka, may pinagdadaanan siya. Kaya, naghintay ulit ako ng ilang araw. I just repeated what things I did to contact her. To check her account everyday, her friends' account, at sinama ko na rin yung Nica Ahorv pero negative pa rin. I'm still posting and messaging those three, but no use.
Hindi ko alam kung mawawalan na ba ako ng pag-asa. Basta, all I know is that... everyday, I'm getting sad and sadder seeing Astre's account like that. Especially that I have no freaking idea if what actually happened before that.
Naisip ko rin kung may nasabi ba akong masama sa kanya all those times, and from all of our chats. Pero wala naman. It just made me sadder. Because after I gave myself a chance to talk to a stranger, which is not my thing... I honestly liked Astre and made her my friend. Without looking when and where I've met her.
Tinuring ko na siyang kaibigan. Yet now that she's nowhere to be found, and she's cannot be reached, I feel like a part of me's slowly getting weak... like I lose someone I loved.
