Alcohol | Gallagher sister*-discontinued-*

seventeen

"here take these ivy." Fiona told me as I sat at the table with ian and lip at my sides. I picked it up and took a good look at it. "what's this?" I asked her. it was a big white pill that felt like chawlk.

"It's your new medicine. It will make you feel better?" She replied. I shrugged and swallowed it. "What's the catch with it?" I asked folding my arms in front of my chest. "You cannot drink as much alcohol as you used too. Whenever you go to a bar you need to have me, ian, or lip with you. Not topper, i know how relationships work and he will give into you" she said.

I nodded and bit my lip. I'm not gonna last without alcohol. I just love how it burns my throat and gives me the right satisfaction and makes my mind blurry. The same with weed. I've only done weed once and it was amazing. Utterly amazing.

"Ivy?" I heard lip asked. I looked at him and saw him holding a cup of water and another pill.

"For your pain in your stomach. I read up and it says after misscarages your stomach will hurt." He said. The room went silent. I nodded and took the medicine. "I'm gonna go lay down." I say as I stand up from my seat and walk up the stairs. I layed on ians bed and sighed.

I shouldn't have done what i did. I feel horrible. I have no idea how toppers doing because I haven't seen him since the day after everything happened.

I heard a knock on the door and saw lip standing there. I looked at him and he crawled in the bed next to me. We were both looking at the ceiling.

"I'm sorry." He said. "For what?"

"For everything bad I've ever done to you." He said.

I turned on my side and placed my head on his chest. He wrapped his arm around me. "It's okay lip. I still love you" I said. He kissed my head and then my meds kicked in and I fell asleep.

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"Hey, Topper." I say as I wrap my jacket tighter around my body. We met each other outside the house. He didn't want me to walk to far.

"Hey." He said. He was dull and his eyes held remorse and sadness. I could tell this was affecting him just as bad.

"So how have you been?" I asked. He shrugged, "okay."

"I have to tell you something." He said. I looked up at him and gulped.

"I think we need a break. Just to heal." He said. I froze my vision started to water. 

"I'm sorry but I think I need a break." He said. I sobbed "please don't leave me. I need you" I said.

"Well I don't need you." He spat then turned and walked away.

"Please" I sobbed, he just kept walking.

I sat on the bench and cried. I then heard that familiar country accent I have heard before.

"Are you okay ivy?" Dwayne asked. I looked up at him and shook my head.

He sat beside me and put his hand on my back.

"I'm sorry." He said. I shrugged, "it's not you. Its topper. We had sex and i got pregnant but I'm an alcoholic and I drank too much and lost the baby. We haven't seen each other in a couple days and he just broke up with me. I need him. I can't do this alone." I sobbed.

"You still have your sisters and your brothers, you have your drumline family. You even have me ivy." He said.

I looked at him and smiled sadly. I hugged him and he rubbed my back.

At least I can get closer to dwayne.