Alcohol | Gallagher sister*-discontinued-*

twenty two

I groaned and rolled over in my bed.
"What now ivy?" Lip sighed. "I'm bored" I whined. "okay? Go bother ian or something. I dont have time for you." lip said. He was trying to study for something.

I sighed and moved out of the room and shut the door. Lately everyone has been hostile towards me.

I went into debbies room and found her asleep with liam. I walked out and down the stairs. I saw ian reading something about the army and carl playing video games.

I sat next to ian and read over his shoulder. "I'm thinking of applying." he said. "ian i dont think its a good idea. I dont want you to get hurt." i said.

Ian scoffed and stood up. "it doesnt matter what you want." then he stomped up the stairs.

"ivy, maybe you should keep to yourself. Your ruining everything." carl said following ian up the stairs. I looked at the floor and sighed.

I heard the door open and close. I looked up and sae fiona. "hey fiona. I wanted to know if me and you could hang out sometime?" i told fiona. Shes been working 5 jobs and is hardly coming home. I have missed her.

"if i can find time. Right now we need money so im putting my job first." she spat at me. I nodded and slowly walked out of the house.

Recently it has been hard to stay away from alcohol. I walked to a bar downtown where no one would kniw who i was. And i drank. I drank my sorrows and troubles.

It felt so good.

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I opened the door and walked into the house. i saw dwayne and ian sitting on the couch talking. I slept out downtown under a bridge. "ivy, where were you?" ian asked. I shrugged "out."

Dwayne smiled at me. I gave him a weak one in return. "god ivy, you cant just leave whenever you fucking want to." ian spat.

I sighed and went up the stairs into the bathroom. Im so fucking done with this shit. I broke fionas shaving razor and grabbed the razor.

I rolled up my shorts and cut. I cut and cut and cut some more. I was so angry and so hurt and upset. There was a knock on the door.

I gasped. There was blood all over the floor and on me. The door opened revealing dwayne. His eyes went wide and he ran over to me. He grabbed towels and pressed them to my scars. I hissed and fought against him. "help! Guys help!" dwayne yelled.

Footsteps wear heard and fiona and lip came in the bathroom. I felt weak. My body felt cold. Dwayne did what fiona told him while they tried to help me.

Lip sat behind me letting me lean on his chest. He was crying. "ivy why did you do this?!" fiona cried. I shook my head. "why did you do it!" lip yelled. "i dont wanna live!" i screamed. It felt like the whole world had gone quiet.

"im sorry." i sobbed. Fiona and dwayne had towels and rags held to my cuts. My body broke out into a cold sweat. "im hot. Lip im so hot. Its hot." i said struggled and moving myself around. I started hyperventilatng. "come on ivy be strong. Stay with us." lip said. I felt my eyes close and i couldnt get them open again. My body felt like it was shrinking. My head got dizzy. "ivy come on. stay with us.
I love you" dwwyne said.

That was the last thing i heard. I had passed out.

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When i woke up it was dark and quiet. I felt the cool breeze of a fan on me. "her heart rate is back to normal." i heard someone say. "you may stay with her. We have no idea when she will wake up." the person finished. "thank you doctor." i heard fiona say. Fiona sat down and grabbed my hand. He hands were wet and warm.

She was nervous and scared.

"ivy rose. Oh god im so sorry. Im sorry that the familys been treating you like shit. We are all so stressed tight now. Ivy i love you so much. Please wake up." fiona cried. I heard the door open and a set of shoes that sounded like boots walked in.

"Fiona im so sorry."
Dwayne?
Did he come to visit me?

"its not your fault dwayne. Its not." fiona replied.

"i thought it was because i asked her to date me. gosh i feel so bad. I shouldnt have pushed her." dwayne said his thick country accent making the words seem jumbled.

"dwayne. I think you should ask her again. She talks about you a lot. Maybe give it another try." fiona said.

I would really love for Dwayne to do that. I didnt even give him a straight answer, i just ran off.

What would I say if he asked me again?

I would say yes.