The Day I Broke Her Arm

7 You Can Say No, You Know

June

She sighed when I showed her my lunch, grilled chicken with cauliflower rice. She might be thinking something else and it made me laugh on the inside. She was really red habang papalapit ako sa kanya.

This is payback for that bathroom door last time Lynn.

"I just need help on cutting thi-"

"May lunch ka na pero.." she cut me off then tinuro niya yung hawak kong plastic na may sandwich and brownies. "bakit ka pa bumili sa cafeteria?"

"Oh." I handed it to her. "Para sayo to."

"Para sa ken?" she has this confused look on her face. "Di ko matatanggap to.. mahal yung pagkain sa cafeteria at-"

She went on and on saying things.. why can't she just accept it. "Just take it.. or else itatapon ko to?"

She flinched and looked at the sandwich. "O-ok." Good, I guess ayaw niyang nagsasayang ng food. "Pero next time, di mo na ako need bilhan."

Why wouldn't I? I'm sure yung binili niyang juice, yun lang ang kakainin niya buong maghapon. "Sure pero kapag nandito tayo for lunch, I want you to also bring your lunch."

She flinched. "A-Ah.."

"Don't ah me.. if wala kang food, I'll buy you so make sure na may dala ka ok?" she's looking guilty again..

Why is she making it so hard for people to take care of her. Di ko din alam actually why I even care too much. "Don't think too much. A-Awkward kasi kumain magisa ok?"

She sighed. "Ok sige.."

She took out my food and binuksan yung container.

Why do I feel that she's sad? Is she hurt by what I said? Is she disappointed?

I just noticed how skinny she is and gusto ko lang naman is kumain siya ng tama at sa tamang oras? A little concern is not that bad? I mean anyone who held her wrist would do it. Why is this driving me crazy???

"Umm.." she quietly said. Napatingin ako sa kanya and di ko namalayan na nacut na pala niya yung chicken and nakalagay na yung small portion sa spoon with rice.

Nakalapit sa ken yung spoon with food and her other hand is nasa ilalim nun para saluhin if may malaglag.

Wait.. is she actually trying to feed me??!

I said that as a joke pang payback dun sa bathroom door last time!!!

"Oh sorry baka mainit pa." nilapit niya sa kanya yung spoon and hinipan.. 

W-What is this?? Why isn't she a bit embarrassed?! And why is she so cute!?

I found myself looking at her lips while she blows on the food. It's full and red, even though mukhang kulang siya sa tulog at kain. It looks soft but I don't know..

..should I try and find out?

My body started to move closer to her and my left arm started reach out to her cheek when she looked at my direction..

*Ba thump

Napaiwas agad ako ng tingin kay Lynn and shifted my body to the other direction. I held my chest and my heart beating so hard I can feel it in my ears.