Your Icy Exterior

Please Dont Go

"Get out"

Lexa stood by the door. Even in a night dress, the look on her face could make grown men and women crumble. Bellamy quickly looked back at me before exiting the room.

She didn't say anything. So I didn't either. I took the time to look at her. Even after two years she looked mostly the same. Her hair was a little longer, but other than that she looked the same. The dark circles under her eyes showed lack of sleep. But she still looked beautiful.

After a few minutes the silence still dragged on. She still just stared.

I didn't know what to say. And it seemed she didn't either.

I was about to walk towards her when I saw a tear drip down her face.

I slowly made my way towards her. She made no move closer. Seemingly not believing me to be real. Then I was only about a foot away from her.

Her hand slowly made there way to the mask that was back up.
She hesitated. Seemed scared that I wouldn't be the person underneath mask.

Then she finally pulled it down. A shaky breath made its way out of her mouth and another tear fell from her eye. I couldn't look towards her so I look away. But quickly a hand landed on my cheek.

"Please look at me y/n" she whispered. Taking the smallest step forward.

I slowly looked up. Tears now steady falling from her face.

I felt both her hands on my face before one left, and went back to her side.

Then she brought it back up. I was to focused on her face to relize the knife she brought to my neck.

Not untill a sharp sting on my neck, did I look down. I looked back into her eyes. Tears forming in my own, but I didn't let them fall.

"Why... why did you have to leave" she asked. I saw anger rise in her eyes.
When I didn't answer she pushed little more.

"If killing me gives you peace then I will not stop you" I said. My voice scratchy with emotion.

She pushed deeper. Tears falling from her green eyes.

"I'm sorry" I said. A tear finally escaping my eye.

She then threw the knife down. Her knees seemed to give out. But I cuaght her.

I wrapped her legs around my waist before walking to the couch and sitting down.

I slowly rubbed her back. She slowly calmed down. Her tears fell down my neck.

When she finally calmed down her eyes were red.
I brought my hand to her face wiping the tears with my thumb.

For a while she just starred, and I did the same.

She looked so pretty even with puffy eyes. I knew I had feelings for the commander that much was clear. But I wasn't sure if she was going to try and kill me again.

Then her eyes went down to the dark blood that was drying on my neck.

She sighed. Then leaned her head on my shoulder.
I rubbed her back again.
"Its alright. I understand" I said quietly.

Then she looked up. Her hand once again coming to rest on my cheek.

"I want to hate you so much... but I know I can't" she said quietly stroking my cheek.

I looked down. I wasn't going to appoligize again. I needed to leave. I needed to be away from everyone in order to heal. I couldn't be in the same place that hurt me, and expect to heal. I think she knew that deep down.