Untold // C.D.

•chapter 40•

(Cameron's POV)
I layed on the floor and sobbed. She's gone and its all my fault.
Megan layed on my back.
I got up and went to my room.
I let out a huge scream.
I knocked everything off my desk, in anger.
A picture frame fell and the glass cracked.
I picked it up, it was a picture of me and Avery making silly faces at each other. It was my favorite picture of us.
I removed it from the frame and put it in my dresser.
I was mad. Mad at myself.
I'm the reason she's dead.
I punched the wall.
A small dent appeared.
I closed my eyes and breathed deeply.
I went and got a push pin out of the wall. It was holding up a picture of me and her on our 3 months.
I lightly traced the sharp blade at my skin, over my scars.
I can't do it.
I've been clean for too long to mess it up now.
I shoved it back into the wall.
I fell onto my bed and grabbed my computer.
I logged onto twitter.
Maybe I can get my mind of things. I just need to calm down before I kill someone.
Oh wait I already did.
(A/n: I just had too)
"I can't believe Cameron would post that. I love Avery and he shouldn't have hurt her," I followed this fan account.
Unfollowed
"I thought Cameron was different.. Guess he's a fuckboy like the rest of magcon.."
Unfollowed
"Camerons a doche"
Unfollowed
"I feel so bad for Avery.. She must be heartbroken.. Cameron must've lost a lot of sense to post that video"
Unfollowed.
I ended up unfollowing a lot of people.
I needed to fix this.
"He guys... I'm making a video soon to clear things up. It's important you all watch it" I tweeted out.
I set up my camera to film. I got the lights and everything.
"Hey guys. I just wanted to let you all know the real story about Avery. So I used to date a girl named Presley, the girl in the video. She had forced me into her parents house where she drugged me up until I was really out of it. I myself haven't even seen the video, hell I didn't even know it was made. Presley didn't even tell me for a while, but when she did, I left. I'm so sorry. I just needed to clear things up with her and tell her the truth.
But when I got home though," I paused. I couldn't say it. I just couldn't say it. I but my head in my hands and cried. For like 5 minutes.
Once I was done and could move on, I continued.
"But when I got home," I closed my eyes, "Nash and Megan had already found the notes and she was a goner," I held my breath and tried not to cry. I just put my hand on my forehead and looked down.
"She had committed suicide," I choked on my words.
"I know its all my fault and I won't be able to sleep at night. I can't function anymore. My whole life has been ripped from me and I can't do anything about it. Its all my fault guys and I'm so sorry.
I tried to get on twitter earlier, but all I was getting was the hate i fucking deserve. Because its all my fault,"
I hid my face again and just sobbed.
After a while again, I spoke up again.
"So from now on I'm taking a break from social media. I will take as long as I need, but from now on I'm not going to making any content. I'm going to wait till you all chill with this, because I don't want to be reminded constantly about the fact that I killed Avery. I'm sorry guys, but I can't do this if its all about her.
I'm sure she would want to be remembered as the joy of life she was almost all the time. So please, if you are going to talk about her, please talk about how good a person she was. I know that's what she'd want.
For now, this is goodbye, for I don't know how long," I got up and stopped the video.
I downloaded it and I couldn't edit it, I couldn't watch myself talk about it.
I uploaded it and titled it "goodbye Avery. I love you a lot babe" and made sure the thumbnail was the picture of me and her making silly faces. I took a deep breath and sat my computer down for it to upload. I went under the covers and fell asleep.
Loop