je t'aime | jaywon

: chapter 1 - backstory

— 🛒 : chapter 1
Authors notes: pretty much just the backstory
and nothing much, the "official" chapter is meant
to be chapter 2, but you get the point there, anyways,
enjoy the first chapters! it'll be eventful <3
📌 — wordcount : 1196 words.

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Jungwon looked at Jay in tears, in total shock of everything that's happening, He knew it'd be like this, but he didn't know it would've happened so soon.

"Jay.. J-Jay.." He stuttered out, hugging his boyfriend tightly, almost tiptoeing To the elder's taller height, "I don't know what I'm gonna d–do without you."

Jungwon sobbed, muzzling his face into the boy's chest to keep his sob's from Growing louder.

Jay looked at Jungwon in distraught and afraid, his hands were Shaking, "I'm so sorry Won. I'm.. I'm so sorry." Jay muttered out, Cupping Jungwon's cheek with his right hand, making the younger look Up at him.

"I'll be here. I'll always be here waiting for you Won. You just Need to wait for me first.. Okay?" Jay muttered out weakly, "I'm so so so sorry." Jay apologized multiple times hearing Jungwon's weak hiccups from his tears, enveloping his face as it Was definitely a sad sunset for both of them, it did signify the end, The end to them meeting like this everyday in each other's arms.

But they both knew they were strong, they were strong
Together and they were strong in the past, surely, they thought That only a few years wouldn't stop their relationship.

"I'll wait, I'll always wait. I'll always, always wait. Jay."
Jungwon muttered out.

"But please promise me you'll come home." Jungwon muttered Out, "I promise my love, I'll come home to you, I promise." Jay cried, knowing how badly he'll miss Jungwon on the ride To the U.S.

It was a solemn moment, Jungwon knew Jay had to go To America to work properly for 3 years, it was better for Their future if they wanted to last until they die old, Jay needed
To go for Jungwon, but the price he had to pay was to leave
Jungwon and distance himself for 3 long years, it'd be painful.

But Jungwon couldn't do anything about it. It was already
Agreed to the contract Jay signed with his company.

"It'll be 3 years, just 3 years Won." Jay muttered out,
"I can barely last a week without you.. How the hell can I manage 3 years Jay..?" Jungwon cried, "I'll be here, everyday, Won, Just through your phone, i'll always be there." Jay smiled softly, Trying to comfort Jungwon who was at his breaking point.

Jay slowly removed his gold necklace from his neck, Putting it around Jungwon as both of them held their hands together Tightly on Jungwon's chest, holding the necklace in the middle, Jungwon's eyes teared up, he hiccuped again, trying not To cry so much as Jay tried to smile at him again.

"Something for you to hold onto my love." Jay silently says, "I love you, okay?" Jay whispered Silently.

"I love you too, Jay." Jungwon muttered out.
Jungwon sniffled, removing his soft cardigan
Jacket and wrapped it around Jay's warm body,
Tiptoeing again to give a kiss on Jay's forehead.

"And this.. Is my gift for you as well, hold onto it while
You're there Jongseong." Jungwon said, hugging the older
Tightly as this time Jay was the one crying into his arms.

"Promise me you'll wait."

"I promise, I promise. Jay."

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Their last goodbyes ended in pain and a warm embrace,
3 years, 3 years without each other, they would have to last,
Hopefully for long, as Jungwon waited, and Jay worked hard.

Calls were right and left, while love
Was in the air through their phones.

But more and more the longer Jay took, the longer the distance They had together, it went from minutes, to hours, to days, To months, then to half a year.

Jungwon sighed, miserably going onto his phone as he checked The timestamp once more, 6 months and 12 days without you my love.

It's been so hard without you by my side, I wish you the best. Jungwon Thought, holding his necklace tightly that was around his neck, his Throat full as he gulped down before he started to cry, shoving his emotional feelings back down.

He sighed once more, opening his laptop to continue
His search once more for job listings, now that he finished college Himself, he had to work as well and not just laze around at the House. He wanted to be as efficient as Jay so when his Love would come home, they'd both be well off by now.

RING! RING!

"Yes? Who is this?" Jungwon picked the phone up
Slowly, rubbing his eyes a bit as he yawned quietly,
"Yah– Jungwon-ah!" A loud voice yelled into the phone.

Jungwon's eyes widened, "Sunoo!" Jungwon
Exclaimed slightly, excited to hear a call from
His bestfriend.

"Jungwonnn! I got a job offer as an intern! They're asking me If they have anyone I can also bring to the job! I wanna pick you As my number one!" Sunoo giggled.

"I-If that's okay with you of course.. If you don't have
A job already.." Sunoo muttered out lightly, "Ohhh..!Really!?" Jungwon asked.

"Yes! In one of the top companies in Korea for
Luxury brands! It's always been your dream to work
In one of them right!? Along with Jay!" Sunoo muttered

Out, making Jungwon feel a light pang in his chest, he
Didn't necessarily get hurt by hearing his lover's name,
But he felt unreasonably weary when he heard it.

He missed him, he missed him so much.
"Yes! It is.. I miss Jay so much." Jungwon chuckles
Silently. "What company?" Jungwon asks excitedly,

"I haven't applied to a job yet! We should go together!
It'll be more relaxing to have someone close to me,
Especially my bestfriend!" Jungwon exclaims, "Yahh
Wonnie! I didn't know I was considered you're bestfriend..
But the company is the one Jay works at!"

"SERIOUSLY?!" Jungwon shouted,
"Yes yes of course I'll join you!!" Jungwon exclaims,
"Are you sureee? I'll be applying already your name
Okay? This is a guaranteed slot, and you can't turn back
Now okay!! I know how stubborn you can be.." Sunoo
Says through the phone, making Jungwon roll His eyes.

"Hmph! Yes! 1000 percent yes!" Jungwon nods Excitedly.

"Greaaat!" Sunoo giggles.
"I'm gonna hang up now Sunoo-hyung, I gotta
Text Jay about this!" Jungwon yells excitedly,
Cancelling and ending the phone call with Sunoo.

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RING RING!

"Who's this now?" Jungwon wondered,
Noticing it was Jay's phone number, immediately
Picking it up as he had a huge grin on his Face.

"Jungwon." Jay mumbled.

"Jay!! Guess what guess what!!" Jungwon
smiles excitedly, wanting to hear Jay's Curiosity as he surprised him.

"Sorry Jungwon, can we uh, I need to say Something first." Jay says silently.

"Oh.. Of course! What's going on Jay?" Jungwon
Asks, just thinking it'd be some random question
Before he was able to say something really important,
He heard Jay sigh through the phone, making him
More antsy and excited to give him the news.

"Jungwon, let's breakup."