je t'aime | jaywon

: chapter - 11

- 🛒 : chapter 11
Authors notes: kinda depressing tbh but this is meant
to be the only sad moment in the book like after this theres not much besides a few conflicts here n there, but yeah, enjoy your fluffy fic after this chapter !!
📌 - wordcount : 1234 words.

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11 missed calls.

11 missed calls Jungwon didn't wanna answer.

He rested on his bed assuming Jay already left
Him at the house as he cried himself to sleep on
Jay as he realizes it was 7am and tucked in his bed.

He sighed, how difficult does it have to be
For him to bare anymore until he cracked.

It felt as if the world wanted him to crack and
Crack but never break, just a never ending cycle
Of torment, he didn't know why it was like this
Either, but he tried, he tried so hard.

Knock. Knock.

Jay opened the door, making Jungwon caught
Off guard as he slowly sat up from his bed again,
"It's raining." Jay mutters out with a hot cup of
Coffee for Jungwon.

"You're not at work?.." Jungwon asked.
"No, I had to take care of you, you're malnourished,
Have you not slept or ate for days?" Jay asked, "Is
That why you ordered a lot of stuff when we hung out?"
Jay asked.

"I guess.. I haven't been managing myself correctly.
I'm sorry." Jungwon apologizes as Jay hands him the mug,
"Drink carefully, it's a bit hot." Jay smiles softly.

"It's really difficult right now." Jungwon says, his
Cold fingers getting warmer because of the hot
Cup.

"I understand." Jay says as Jungwon rests his
Head on Jay's who sat beside him on the bed,
Watching the rain triple down from the window.

"I don't know how I ended up like this Jay." Jungwon
Mutters out, his voice indicating how he felt like giving
Up already, his tone was dead, and his voice was weak,
He never felt so exhausted, and this was someone who worked Almost half a day at the biggest company.

"Please take care of yourself Jungwon." Jay mutters
Out, "It's difficult to see you like this." Jay sighs, "I don't
Know how to help myself anymore.. Jay.." Jungwon chuckles Awkwardly.

"I just want a day where I could just finally have
No issues." Jungwon mumbles, "Have you ever tried
Talking it out to Heeseung?" Jay asks as he sits up more,
Sitting down infront of Jungwon as the younger placed his
Coffee to the side, making Jay hold his hands for a bit.

"It's really difficult.. To get.. To him properly, I thought
We were okay before, but i've never felt more distant to
Him, and it's only been a few weeks." Jungwon muttered
Out.

"Why don't you talk to him?" Jay asks as Jungwon's
Phone suddenly rings, both of them noticing it was
From Heeseung, "Speak of the devil." Jay chuckles,
"Go take the call, Jungwon." Jay says as Jungwon sighs
And nods, finally agreeing to call Heeseung.

"Hello?" Jungwon asks as Heeseung rambles,
"Oh my god Jungwon- I thought you had an
Accident.. Where are you?" Heeseung asks worriedly,
"Im.. I'm at home.." Jungwon mutters out.

"..Are you with Jay?" Heeseung asks as it was
Silence from there, after a few seconds, Jungwon took
A deep breath, "..Yes." Jungwon replies, Heeseung
Sighs this time, "It's okay. I understand." Heeseung mutters
Out, "I'm really sorry for acting that way yesterday." The
Older says.

"You always say sorry Hee.. that's my biggest issue.."
Jungwon mumbles, "It feels like it'll never work out anymore." The younger says weakly, his throat feeling full as if he was about To cry.

"I know I know." Heeseung mutters out.

"I'm gonna go outside to give you some privacy." Jay mutters Out as he walked outside of Jungwon's room, closing the door Silently as he walked as far as he could away from Jungwon's room.

"What.. what are we really Heeseung?"

"You asked me that 4 months ago." Jungwon mumbles,
"We're.. We're us, right? Just two people in love right?"
Heeseung asked through the phone.

"..Are we though?" Jungwon mutters out.
"It's been months and months, it's been four, four months
Of trying to fix it, Hee." Jungwon mumbles, "I, I don't think
It can work anymore, as much as we've tried." He explains.

Heeseung sighs as Jungwon tears up, sniffling a bit
As both of their hearts shatter deep inside of them.

"I don't even think it was Jay who was the reason for
All of this.." Heeseung chuckles, "I realized.. We already
Had problems before he came. And it turned me for the
Worst, because all I did was blame you when Jay was
Around, even though I knew you liked me and not him."
Heeseung explained.

"It was never Jay in the first place, we're just both
Not meant for each other really, won." Heeseung
Mumbles.

"Heeseung.."

"Let's.. Let's break up Hee." Jungwon staggers.

"I think.. That's really what this relationship needed."
Heeseung mutters out, "A small goodbye." Heeseung
Says as he hears Jungwon's muffled sobs through the
Phone.

"I'll always wait for you Jungwon. I think I really do
Know the meaning of right person wrong timing now."
Heeseung chuckles.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry Heeseung, I'm sorry."

"It's okay Won, it's for the best." Heeseung says,
His voice slightly cracking as he tried to keep his
Tears in.

"I love you." Heeseung adds.

"..I love you too." Jungwon says, as he

Ends the call, his feelings crushed as his
Heart breaks into millions of pieces.
Jungwon steps out of his room, noticing Jay looking at him
Worriedly as the younger's dark circles under his eye catches Jay's attention, "What's up?" Jay asks quietly as all Jungwon Could do was tear up again.

"Oh.. Jungwon.." Jay says as he walks up to

Jungwon.

"We broke up. I did it the same way you did it." Jungwon
Mumbled as Jay's heart stings, not because of the comment,
But because of how painful it is to see Jungwon like this, the
Younger was barely holding on as he was a total mess.

"Jungwon.. Are you sure?" Jay asks quietly.

"Even if it hurts. I still feel a huge weight lifted off
My chest." Jungwon sighs as his eyes widened as
Jay hugs him tightly, how ironic the person who hurt
Him the most was comforting him from a similar event.

"It hurt, it hurt a lot, but i'll be okay. Heeseung will
Be okay." Jungwon mutters out.

"Will you really be okay Jungwon?" Jay asks.

"I will. I promise." Jungwon mumbles as he
Barely clings onto Jay, his body barely keeping up
As his heart was shattering in Jay's arms.

How many more days do I have to suffer?

Jungwon's eyes closed slowly as he sat down on the
Cold floor with Jay, relaxing to the beat of the older's
Heart, along with the rain, the slightly calming atmosphere
Helping him rest from such a terrible day.

"I tried so hard." Jungwon whispered.

"I tried.. I tried so hard." He muttered out, the pain
In his voice evident as Jay sighed looking at how
Distraught Jungwon was, it pained him, and it hurt so
Much to think that Jungwon felt like this when he
Was the one who hurt him.

"You tried your best Jungwon."

"It's okay, just cry everything out,
I'm here. And what matters is that you're here too."

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