The event was a blast at ang nanalong school organization o club ay ang amin. The members and officers were all having fun, I'm too. Sitting the corner of the room with the disco lights and loud music I sip on my drink. Actually, I joined this clubs because I wanted to have another thing to focus my attention instead of burying myself on studying I decided to try joining one too.
Wala akong kaclose dahil na rin sa nahihiya ako at kakapasok palang. Madalas ay parang hangin, madalas ay kakausapin kapag kailangan at madalas akong nasa sulok. Ewan ko, ganito na nga ang nararanasan pero pilit pa rin akong nanatili. Sayang din kasi ang mga incentives.
Our vice president Shane waved her glass as she held on to the microphone connected to the speakers, “hi!” Aniya, naghiyawan ang mga miyembro sa loob at kanya-kanyang nood sakanya. “The event was successful because of you all. As we celebrate I hope that in future we will do things like this, your cooperation are highly approved! Let's enjoy the night!” Then with that the loud music began to play, kanya-kanyang mundo na.
Tumayo ako ng mapansing ubos na pala ang iniinom bahagyang nahilo ng masalubong ang nagsasayawang mga ilaw na iba’t ibang kulay pa. Balak kong uminom ng kuonti at umuwi na pagkatapos ayaw ko namang sabihang KJ. Ng makadalawang baso’y nagpaalam na ako kanda tango lamang ang president habang walang pakielam ang vice ni hindi nga ako kakilala.
Holding the strap of my bag as I walk outside, I blew my hot breathe on my right hand it was cold because it's January. Mas malamig pa ang Enero at Pebrero kaysa sa Desyembre. Iba rin trip ng klima ano..
About to break free on my thoughts when I saw a convinient store suddenly my stomach growl. I craved for a cup noodles.. Basta mainit,
solve na ako.
Pagkapasok ay tumango ang nasa counter sinabihang malapit na raw silang mag-sara. Akala ko ba 24/7 na open? I picked two siopao’s as usual and a cup noodle when I payed for it I went and started walking while eating.
Actually my apartment is near at my university, I have three part time jobs which is really a big helps on my bills and expenses. Living alone is hard, really. In the age of seventeen I had to live alone my mother died along time ago, my father whom I didn't even know, relatives who only know how to sympathize but doesn't have any ounce of guilt to help me. Kaya nasanay na akong mamuhay mag-isa, mahirap pero ayos na kaysa naman magpalaboy-laboy.
On the sidewalk of the big oval community park under the trees, I walk around. Thinking of something better to do before going home. Inisip ko kung kakayanin ko bang makapagtapos ng course ko, noong nasa senior high ako’y ganoon din. Wala akong matinong pangarap, ni wala ngang alam pasukan. I just went on the flow..
Envious on others, their plans and choices was clearer than mine.. At eto, dahil walang matinong desisyon nagpa-agos na lamang pinasok ang BSA ng walang matinong pag-iisip. I tried to seek for consultation but all of them told me that I should take what makes me happy. The fuck is it? Akala ko makakatulong pero patagal ng patagal lalong lumalabo, lalong naliligaw.
Hanggang sa sumuko nalang ako sa pag-iisip at kinuha ang bagay na hindi ko naman talaga gusto.
The frustration everytime I had to see my marks, the frustration everytime I see my classmates happily chit chating about their day... Ayaw kong magshift ng course para saan pa ba ang isang taon?
“Tangina,” rinig kong mura ng kung sino natigil ako sa paghigop ng sabaw. “Putangina! Putangina! Putangina!” I face palmed hearing his continues swears.
BINABASA MO ANG
Blinding Lights
General Fiction[FIN] Being a college student is tough. You're now at a level of your life where you could be a light for someone else however, Aicia Gueco a third year BSA student is sailing without any direction on life. Afraid of rejections, afraid of criticism...
