you will always be my home

i miss my lover man

Lena's pov;

Maybe she was acting in impluses? Maybe she didn't mean it. Fuck. What if she did? What if she actually wants to marry him? I was so stupid to think that she loved me, or that anyone could love me at all. But, she could tell me she loved me after she ran me over with a car and i'd believe her. I have never put this much trust in someone. That's why I never told her I love her, because i'm afraid, terrified. I've never fallen this hard. I'm so stupid.

Kara's pov;

I have to. I don't have a choice. Well yeah I have a choice but I don't want to choose. Why should I even be deciding on this. It's Lena. I love her, not Mon- El? Oh screw it. It's fine, she never even told me she loved me anyway. Atleast he tries. I guess. Damnit. I'm such a screw up. I already said yes, and I don't want to break his heart. They both deserve the world.

***third person pov***

Kara; Hey I need to talk to you. Be at your office in 5. Seconds btw.

Before Lena could respond Kara was at her balcony and Lena got up to greet her. "Hi." Lena began with not knowing what to say. "I- I don't know. I'm sorry, I don't know." Kara said motioning between her and Lena. "What do you mean you don't know? I could've sworn that this- us- was real. Was it not? Is it not?" Lena replied. "Lena, I said yes." Kara responded. And then Lena felt it, the pain that she would've felt a few hours ago back at the restaurant if she never had any trust in Kara. "You meant it, didn't you?" Was all Lena could say. Kara was speechless. She didn't have any words, or the right words to say.

"You never loved me. Admit it, Kara." Lena stated. "Lena, I can't do that. You know I did..." Kara paused. "But you didn't, you truly didn't. Well, fun fact Kara. I've never fallen for anyone harder than I did you. I fell, completely inlove. I- you're the most inconsiderate person i've ever met. I mean seriously, you are." She finished. "I'm inconsiderate?! Lena you're not even letting me speak! You, you are the inconsiderate one! But, just keep doing what you're doing. I'd like it if you didn't take words out of my mouth. How would you, decide for me, if I ever loved you. How is that your decision. That's what's fucking inconsiderate."

Lena's eyebrows raised at Kara's response. "You know Kara I- nevermind. I'm- you- we're done here. Whatever the hell we had, it's done. Go fuck yourself." Lena said pointing to the balcony motioning for Kara to leave. As Kara was walking out the door she said, "I did love you. Who am I kidding- I do love you, more than I have and will never love anyone. I believe that I always will. And i'll do anything for you. So if this is the end of our- us- i'm always here." Once Kara finished, she turned back around and flew away.

Lena was shattered. She held herself together for as long as she could. But, Kara- losing her- hurt more than most of the pain she'd experienced. Kara wasn't just the person she fell inlove with. They saw eachother everyday, they had lunch together everyday, they always made time for eachother, they even had a favorite show together. They had an bond, a bond that couldn't be broken by anyone but themselves.