An Introvert's Love

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Ocean of tears behind closed doors,
scars of pain on her imperfectly perfect skin, her eyes were painted with beautiful colors of sleepless nights, her lips were sealed with untold stories, she has a kind heart that's filled with an unimaginable amount of love and care and a mind that never stops overthinking.

Her insecurities made her feel low of herself, her not so sweet voice made her speak less, her inability in forming words made her a quieter one, her love for books made her a nerd, her interest in strange things made her a weirdo, her innocence made her stupid, her good intentions made others hate her and just like that she started to hate herself.

She is broken and still breaking into tiny pieces, but even with that tiny pieces, she tried to give her love to whoever she could nonetheless all she get in return was hurt.

She was depressed, she doesn't feel the urge to sleep, eat or do anything. She has anxiety, which was the biggest barrier that blocked her view of even trying. She is bipolar, anti-social, stubborn, emotional. She is all she doesn't want her to be.

She hates every single thing about her, she hates the way she talks, she hates the way she looks, she hates the way she walks, she hates the way she does things, she just hates the way she is.

More to it, people were so quick to judge her, with everything she already has in her mind, even a small word could make her overwhelmed and break her even more than she already was.

And her friends, ah! well, friends, they make your life better, they make you glow, they put a smile on your face, they are the reason why school life is heaven, right!

But no, not for her. Even surviving each day seemed to be a big task for her. She doesn't understand why her friends always let her down or do shits to her even though all she gave them was her love.
But whatever happens in school with her hell of friends. The only place she found comfort was, truly! nowhere.

For the sake of her parents, she wears a smile on her face at home and wears the fakest smile in her school cause you know what! being sad is overrated. People don't get it, they just think that she is being emotional but that's not it.

The marks on her skin know her pain, it's the evidence of how badly she wanted to end all this, her life.

And the last thing for which is most afraid was falling in love, well that happened, she fell in love.

But her insecurities kept telling her you are not worth it!

Her name is Yura . it's her journey of slowly accepting and loving herself.

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"If you don't love yourself now, it's okay..but you will someday and that day is not too far"

Have a nice day...✨

(Republished)

Kindly ignore the grammatical mistakes ❤️❤️ This is one of the first stories I wrote and so mistakes are inevitable. While reading, do oversee them❤️